Stay Awhile? (A Johnnie Guilbert FanFic)

I miss you

~Johnnie's POV~

I scrolled through my Twitter notifications, favoriting and retweeting some of my followers tweets. I was about to log off when I saw I name I haven't seen in a while-

"@lyriclovesbands favorited your photo"

That means she still looks at my Twitter... Maybe I should DM her? I don't know. What would I say? "Hey Lyric I know I was a really bad boyfriend and all but will you please give me another chance?" I don't think that would work.

I thought about what to say over and over again but I finally decided to just go with a simple "hey I know we haven't talked for awhile, but do you want to meet up somewhere for lunch sometime?"

After I sent it I lied back, kind of regretting what I just did. I mean, yes I miss her and all but I don't want to go through the heartbreak if she says no.

Ever since she left I've been super sad. My depression has come back and I think about her everyday. Her voice, her eyes, the way her nose scrunched up when she laughed... Everything.

I've seen her around town, but I've never been able to convince myself to go up and talk to her. I can't even go into hot topic anymore because I'm afraid she'll be working.

With thoughts of her swimming through my head, I fell asleep.

~lyrics POV~

When I woke up saw I checked my Instagram and then my Twitter. While it loaded I put in a twenty øne piløts cd and nodded my head heavydirtysoul. When it finally loaded I noticed I had a DM and went to check it.

I had to double check myself when I saw who it was. I couldn't believe after all this time he would finally try to get in contact with me.

Johnnie had asked me to go to get lunch with him sometime, but I didn't really know what to say. The thought of going out to eat with him made me super nervous, so I didn't really know what to say.

It wasn't only that it was with him, but the thought him seeing me now- all skinny and sick looking, always wearing long sleeves and jeans- I'm not good enough anymore.

But regardless of my anxiety I said yes. I feel like I need to talk to him about all that's happened, and maybe try to be friends with him again. But part of me knows that we'll never be friends again and that I'm losing all of my friends.

I'm just one big fuck up. My entire love is one big fuck up. My family hates me, Johnnie and Bryan hate me, Sam is probably going to hate me once I move out....

You see, sometimes i see Johnnie and Bryan at the mall but all they do is get chipotle and go to Aeropostale and leave. And I know it's because of me. It's my fault they never go in hot topic anymore.

And I bet someone bet Johnnie to invite me to go out to eat. I bet he doesn't even show up. I bet he doesn't even reply to me with when we'll go out to eat.

And I bet Bryan will make fun of Johnnie for going out with a loser like me. And I bet Sam will get mad at me for giving Johnnie another chance.

Maybe I should just not go. I don't know. All this thinking about it though is making me sick to my stomach. I just need to stop. I think as I exit off Twitter and get on tumblr.

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Ok so thank you to anyone who's still reading this. I'm so sorry I haven't updated in forever Ive just been really busy lately. On the brightside, im going to start trying to update once or twice a week but they might be short chapters. Anyway, that's all.

~peaceskies! ♥︎♥︎♥︎