It's been a few days since is saw Pepi. The whole team is on a 9 day vacation, and Pedro is in the USA with fer, his brother, and Eric to watch some basketball game.
Speaking about basketball, did you know it's not smart to play when you have a concusion. Yeah I made that conclusion a few days ago while playing with Pedro. I took these days off as an opportunity to see some of my 'non-soccer' friends. Even though I'm having a blast with my old friends, I miss Pedro.
We've texted, and facetimed but I still miss having him here, in Barcelona. I saw on his insta that he met Tom Holland, that hot british dude better not try anything with MY man.
Today I'm meeting Ale and Ansu, just to hang. I arrived at Ale's place, we decided to go to his house to out run fans and paparazzi. Ansu was already there, just hanging on the couch.
'Ahhh the less hot and less talented left forward!' I joked. I was greeted by a pillow against my head. We laughed, I threw back the pillow when I heard Ale say: ' Can you guys leave my furniture in one piece?'. ' Ola Ale!' I greeted him. He went to get some drinks.
He returned with two beers and... ' Here Pablito have yourself a chocolat milk!' He laughed while giving Ansu a beer and taking the other one for himself. 'Why do I have to drink milk and you guys beer?!' I asked slightly annoyed. 'Cause your just a little kid!' Ansu laughed. 'You're only 2 years older!' I exclaimed.
I hate being treat like a kid. I did my usual angry look with my arms folded. 'Ay come on Pablito! You love chocolat milk!' Ale said. 'Thats true..' I said while taking a sip. Oh how I love chocolat milk.
' Pablito can I ask something?' Ale asked quietly. 'Ofcourse whats wrong, you're scaring me?' I said. 'What is going on between you and Pepi? I think we speak for the whole team as we say that we feel that there is some kind of chemistry between you guys. We've known Pepi for a while and he is different around you,' Ale said, Ansu nodded agreeing.
My palms were getting sweaty, my troatwas as dry as the desert. He continued: 'He is more sensitive and open around you. And you are also different around him, you're more nervous an hesistant around Pedro,' Ansu said.
A knot in my stomach and a bump in my troat. What do I need to do, they know and I know they know I like him. But I can't say it, they can't know I'm gay. ' I don't know guys... Pepi is my best friend! Ofcourse do we have a great connection! Would be weird if we hadn't not?' I said nervously, I hate lying but yet here I was, lying again.
'Pablo, you sure there is nothing more between you two?' Ale asked. 'Yes,Jesus just cut it off okay?!' I basically screamed because I was getting frustrated. Ale and Ansu looked like they're puppies and I just hit them.
' I'm sorry guys... I just miss my best friend. He is so far away and I- I just miss him' I said looking down. They put there arms around me, even though they still didn't know yet why Pedro's presence is so important for me, they saw it hit hard on me.
'We know you love him very dearly, and he loves you to though he doesn't know it yet,' Ansu broke the silence. I looked at him with wide eyes. Pedro who loves me? Could it ever?
'D-Do you really think he loves me?' I asked him quietly. ' Pablo are you actually blind?!' Ale exclaimed. ' Ofcourse he loves you, dude's world stopped turning when you were missing! He cried, Pablito, he cried because of you! I have never saw him cry, not even after a loss!' He continued.
' I-I love him too...' I whispered. 'What did you say Pablo?' Ansu asked. They're my best friends, I have to tell them. 'I love him too, and way more than just a friend. I like him way more than just as my teammate or best friend. I don't know guys I don't know what this feeling means. I think I might be in love with him, I think I'm bisexual, it's definitly not just guys. I mean I think Pedro is really gorgeous and attractive, a always have but lately I feel so much more when I'm around them' I never told you guys cause Ididn'twant you to hate me! I don't want you guys to be discusted by me! Please don'thate me... I splurted all of that out my mouth and thoughts.
I only now realized I was crying. When I realized how confused Ale and Ansu were looking, I started sobbing harder and burried my face in my hands, afraid to look them in the eyes. I wanted to dissappear. I ruined everything! This could be the end of my carreer.
I was practicaly histericly crying and almost hyperventilating when i felt two pairs of arms around me. Ansu who was on my left, putted his head on my shoulder. Ale who was on my right, just wrapped his arms around me while looking at me. 'Pablito, we could never, ever hate you. You're our little brother. For now and always we will be by your side! We love you for who you are and that'll never change!' Ale said, tears in his eyes. Ansu nodded, agreeing with the other boy.
I was still sobbing. What will happen now. My thoughts were like a rollercoaster, out of control and racing at a record speed. 'And we won't say a word to either Pedro or any other teammates! You can count on that!' Ansu added.
We sat like this for a good few minutes. I stopped sobbing, when Ale noticed he began to speek again: 'Now we need a plan,' he stated. 'Wh-what are you talking about?' I asked. ' I know exactly what he is talking about!' Ansu said smiling. 'WE ARE GONNA PLAY CUPIDO!' they exclaimed in choir. 'Ohw boy..' was the only thing I said. ' Ohw yess Pablito, you are gonne be his new banana!' Ale screamed.
I gave him a weird look. Ale and Ansu started planning our first date, like that is ever going to happen. 'May I remind you guys that Pedro doesn't like me back?' I asked. ' Owh sush Pablito, what do you know about that, let us worry about that. We'll fix this, trust us!' Ansu said. Trusting them two was like trusting a dog to drive a bus. This was going to be fatal. I took my phone cause it was buzzing. It was Pedro asking how things were going.
Pepi
Pepi: Ola hermano, como estas?
Me: I'm okay, hows America?
Pepi: it's literally the best! I have to take you here one time, you'll love it!!!
Me: i'd love that!
Pepi: i kinda miss you
Me: awhhhh really?!
Pepi: yess its very quite and i have no one to bully cause now i'm the youngest.
Me: i was gonna
say i miss you too, you asshole!
Pepi: no but all jokes aside i do miss my best friend!
Me: aweee
Pepi: so yeah can you tell ferran i miss him :)
Me: shut up
Pepi: make me
Me: i miss you pepi
Pepi: i miss you too hermano
I putted my phone aside and turned back to the conversation that Ansu and Ale were so caught up in. I couldn't follow. I heard things about a banana tree with a huge bowl of fresh bananas, a fontaine with chocolat milk, and nota d'amor as first dance...I realized they're were planning our wedding and this was my cueue to leave.
' I think I'm going to go home, thanks guys for everything! Te amo!' I said. ' No problem hermano, we love you to!' Ansu said. 'Get home safe little one' Ale said. I went to the door, and before pulling it close I could hear them talk about some vision board they were going to make and I smiled. I truly have the best friends.
