Helping Neverland

. wishes are explained .

Elliot's POV

"I was selfish, wasn't I?" Tira asked, eyes cloudy and filled with tears. I stood still as she continued.

"I wanted to help them, but instead I hurt them. I did the exact opposite I wanted to do!" She shouted, roughly pushing her hair back.

"I tried, I really did!" She cried out, whipping her head over and staring at me dead in the eyes. The slight craze behind them, and the pain and guilt hidden just beneath that surface was starting to crumble in front of my very eyes.

"I asked Him to take my memories of them away. I knew it was the better choice, how couldn't I know?" She ranted, pacing back and forth. I walked up, taking small steps. "But no! It wasn't enough. He wanted more."

"Tira, what do you mean-"

"I couldn't think of anything else. I had nothing else! I was - I am - just a damn ghost trapped in her 12 year old body with nothing of note! There wasn't anything else to give away, Elliot!" She cried out, grabbing onto my arm.

"Their memories of me were the only thing I could trade." She choked back a sob. Gently I took my sleeve and wiped away her tears as best as I could. I didn't know anything. Hell, I probably knew less than that Derrick kid, but this was something nobody else asides from Tira knew.

Not even the Grace Field kids.

"I asked Him why this was fine but not my memories of them, and he said that it was because I was the problem." She scoffed out an empty laugh.

"I was the problem as always."

"Why?"

"Because I was selfish. The one thing that I was scared of more than the most was being forgotten again. It happened once, and I felt like absolute shit throughout those 11 years I spent wandering around the orphanage, hoping someone would notice me."

"I..." I paused for a second. Was it even alright for me to say anything? I was never in her shoes before, never yearned for someone to notice me. I was fine being alone, stuck in a world where only I existed and yet I didn't matter at all.

"For four years I thought I finally achieved my goal. Phil noticed me, and I was able to somehow interact with him. Even if it was just Phil, that was all I needed. That was enough. I forget that I'm a ghost and then I get pulled into these crazy plans, schemes I never knew I would ever do. But now I'm cursed as the only one with these memories and also the hate that they have against me."

I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything. What the hell did I know? She yearned for recognition, to interact with these people and yet it was all stripped away from her. The supposed good and bad times she may have had with them was what she enjoyed, but now it's a one-sided battle where she has to somehow prove that this was the only option out there. And with every outsider banned from the mansion, there isn't anyone who can help unless they want a stabbing headache. I pulled her into a hug.

"I don't think you're a bad person, Tira," I finally said. "Yeah you might have fucked up and made a lot of mistake. Maybe you didn't really think through all your options when making this deal with the devil or whoever the hell he is, but your intentions were sincere. You wanted them to get out without needing to sacrifice something important to them. Their memories might be gone, but..."

"I think they still remember you in some way."

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A/N: I TOTALLY did NOT write and finish this chapter before finishing the one after "things get worse.", tooooooooootally I did not! .... okay so hear me out, I already knew what I wanted after like, a few days or whatnot. But I didn't know how I was going to get there. So I decided to write up this chapter first before I forgot everything XD But damn, we finally get to see how Tira feels about the wish she made and WHY she even made it in the first place. And also, some nice Elliot and Tira moment because we need that after all the craziness that happened the past couple of chapters, that's for sure! Anyways, hope you all liked this one! Bye for nowwwwww~~~~~~