Tw attempted suicide
"Dr bekker thank you"
What the hell is going on?
Why does Latham look so serious?
I put my hands into my pockets to hide the shakiness that is a symptom of my anxiety.
I haven't always had anxiety. Just developed recently
"I have information which I think will be of welcome news to you both"
And what might that be dr Latham?? I want to yell. But I don't.
"I pressed the lab to analyse the insulin that killed Mr Rhodes"
This doesn't seem good
"What's the point it's un traceable?"
I question him. Yeah it makes me seem suspicious but I have a point.
"Normaly yes but I thought no stone should be left un turned well it appears this particular batch Whas ever so slightly contaminated With chromium which is indeed traceable and we will find in no time who had access to it"
Who was it??
Is it my fault??
What if those weren't mints..
"Thats great news"
I force a smile.
Battling anxiety and panic attacks is so hard.
"Yes The police seem confident that they can wrap this up quickly which means that You two Can stop accusing one another and my department can get back to normal"
-Connors pov-
I looked at ava who's face had a guilty sort of look she looked at me
"Ava?" I said it as more of a question she looked into my eyes the same guilty look and started to walk off "AVA!" I called after her as I followed close on her tail
-ava pov-
I walked into the O.R prep room and Connor was hot on my heels
"Ava.."
"Give me an hour to get to O'hare one hour you'll never see me again"
"No"
Why was Connor so resolute it's going to have to be what I wished for.
I couldn't take all this anxiety and stress.
All the blame.
I fight back tears reminding myself this should have happened long ago. I wasn't meant to be alive.
I was meant to die when I was a teen.
"I did it for you"
"Ava come on"
I grabbed the scalpel that was nearby I held it feeling the cool metal against my skin I exhale deeply loving the feeling of control.
"We could have been so happy"
I want to tell him I'm sorry.
I need him to know it's not his fault but I can't bring myself to say it.
My body's taken over doing it All for me like q programmed robot.
"You ruined it all"
His eyes were focused on the scalpel in my right hand
"You really are an ungrateful prick"
I raised it to my neck.
I know exactly where my carotid is.
Pain overwhelms me as I feel blood soak me
-connors pov-
I watched as Ava lifted the scalpel and before I could stop her with a look of pain on her face she cut her throat
-ava pov-
I heard "AVA NO" it hurt so bad I wanted to scream but I couldn't i used my last remaining strength to look at connor asking for forgiveness and so I could try apologise with my looks as I did it my vision already blurred I felt him take me onto the floor his warm hands in my neck as I blacked out
-Connor POV-
"HELP HELP I NEED SOME HELP IN HERE HELP"
Beth ran in as I was trying to clamp the carotid Artery "DR LATHAM!!!!"
Dr Latham ran in "she sliced her carotid do we have a prepped O.R?"
"Err I'll bump my case on pressure on the Artery"
"1,2,3 LETS GO"
"I have fingers on her carotid but I'm loosing a pulse"
"She's arresting I need to open up her chest"
"Marty she needs blood epi"
"I'm working as fast as I can" he told me whilst messing with wires and tubing Latham cut open her thin waist that I never noticed how thin she was.. how many meals was she skipping?? It's all a blur as I hear latham requesting the spreader and Goodwin ran in on the intercom "dr rhodes?"
"She tried to kill herself" i say trying to save her Goodwin stood shocked "ok I have the carotid clamps on Marty how much blood has she got" "10 units and 10 of plasma" "alright it's now or never inter cardiac epi" the machines were beeping "defibrillating another round of epi PADDLES charge to 20" "charged" "CLEAR" nothing... I started Internal cpr still beeping
"Dr rhodes"
"Dr Rhodes she's gone"
I bang my hands on the table.
This is all my fault.
If I'd have just let her leave..
I find myself wondering if it was ava who killed my father.
I need to find out.
If it wasn't avey Why did she kill herself?
Then it sinks in.
Aveys dead.
I look to the sunset and think how beautiful she looks.
Im not as upset as I should be.
I get home and do everything as normal.
I then go to pd leaving my phone at home
-connors phone Notification Center-
3 missed calls from sharon goodwin
2 missed calls from dr latham
1 email from dr latham
7 messages from sharon goodwin
