Always, Love (girlxgirl)

Chapter 23

"Where am I?", I asked groggily as I raised my head to look around. My eyes were still trying to adjust the the harsh white light. Before I could take a good look around, I heard the subtle scrape of a chair leg against the floor as someone rushed to stand up. A voice followed.

"You're awake", Jamie sighed in relief.

"Did I miss the ball?", I asked as I spotted the time on a wall clock. It was 10am, so I must have slept through the rest of the day.

Jamie chuckled. "No, darling. The ball is tonight. But don't stress about that for now. I'm just glad you're alright" she smiled.

I sent her a weak smile back. God, that's embarrassing that she saw me like that. I don't like people seeing me like that. I'm not helpless. I'm not. I don't want her to see me that way as a person.

"Jamie, look. I just wanna apologize for-"

She cut me off, shaking her head and looking down. "Don't apologize for something you can't help. Who hurt you so badly?"

I met her sympathetic gaze and answered her question honestly. "A lot of people."

I looked around and tried to figure out where I was, but I'd never seen this room before. The floor and walls were white. Almost everything in the room was white. It looked to be a private hospital room. I was laying on a hospital bed and Jamie was sitting in a chair by my side. She looked like she'd been there since yesterday. She probably had been.

"It's not supposed to be that way, you know", she stated, drawing my attention back to her.

I looked at her with a puzzler expression. "What do you mean?"

"People aren't supposed to hurt the people they care about. When you care about someone, you try to protect them from pain. Have you never experienced that?", she asked genuinely.

"Not growing up" I sighed.

"That pains me."

I noticed the sorrow in her face. She hates that I was hurt. She seemed as if she wanted to say something, but was holding back.

"You can ask me questions, you know. Apparently my file isn't all of what there is to know" I offered.

She nodded and began talking. "What made you pass out yesterday?"

I took a deep breath before answering her. "When I was ten, my mom's boyfriend forced me to have sex with him. I wasn't awake for it, thank God. I don't think I could've handled that. On my tenth birthday, he got drunk.. really drunk. He started making passes at me and I was scared..so I called over to my mom for help. She was right there the whole time." I tried to hold my tears back. I gripped the thin white blanket that was draped over my legs as I talked. "He got upset that I didn't want him to touch me..and even more upset when I yelled for my mom. He punched me and knocked me out with one blow to the head. I woke up hours later with a sore feeling in between my legs. I was laying in my barbie bed with a used condom thrown beside me. I had a severe concussion. My mom left him a few weeks later for different reasons, but I still get scared sometimes when men touch me." I sniffled and held back the rest of the tears that were trying to flow out. I sat up and tried to look unbothered.

"I'll kill him", Jamie spit out with a crazy look in her eye. She was serious. She would actually kill this man. As much as I hate him, I don't want her getting in trouble for killing someone who isn't even present in my life anymore.

My eyes grew wide and scared. "No, you can't!"

"And why not?" Her arms were crossed and her muscles were bulging as she tried to keep herself in check. "That bastard hurt you" she seethed.

I got out of the hospital bed and walked over to Jamie. I straddled her in her chair. She moved her hands to my waist quickly. The edges of my green dress from yesterday were riding up, and I felt the pressure from the garters against my thighs. I pressed my hands to the sides of her face.

"You care about me" I stated.

"Yes, love. I do" she confirmed.

I smiled. "That's all I need. It doesn't matter if I didn't have that growing up because I have it now. I care about you too." I traced my fingers along her bottom lip before moving in closer. She maintained eye contact with me before leaning in closer and closing the gap between our lips. I moved my arms to hand around the back of her neck and I smiled into the kiss.

"I can feel you smiling, you know" she laughed.

"Good" I beamed before kissing her soft lips one more time. I pulled away. "Now, where are we again?"

"Right. This is uhm..the hospital in our home" she answered.

"Uh huh. So what I'm hearing is, my bed isn't a far walk?" I smirked.

Jamie laughed and rolled her eyes. "Let me talk to the doctor. I'll see if you're ready to be released yet. Hold tight."

She patted my thighs and I got up and let her walk over to the doctor. I watched her walk over to the door across the room. Damn that woman is hot.