"Chiara, I think I love you. And I'm sure that 'I think' is 'I know'. I've said it and I can't unsay it.
It's been a week or so and I know it's cheesy to feel this already. But I'm a cheesy person. And in all honesty, I love you and you are the most amazing, wonderful, loving and caring person alive.
I'm not mad, believe me. I apologize for my outburst earlier. It was unnecessary, it was stupid actually.
Chiara, I love you and I don't care if you can't say it back. It doesn't change anything on my side."
I rubbed my face and stood up. I folded the paper and put it into my pocket. I didn't feel guilty anymore. He loves me, I can't undo that. And I never tried to.
I jumped off the stage. I walked back to the entrance of the venue. My phone buzzed. Luna calling.
"Hey Lun!"
"Hi Chiara! How did it go?"
I walked out of the venue. Walking back to the bus.
"Okay. He isn't mad anymore."
"That's good. So, uhm, since the boys are heading to the soundcheck now. Rose and I thought a shopping trip would do us all good."
"That sounds perfect. Shall I meet you somewhere?"
"Come to the Big Ben. It's only 10 minutes from the venue I heard."
"Cool, see you!"
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JAMES P.O.V
I couldn't be bothered with any of Ben's and Chiara's issues. I was trying to think of how I could speak to Sam. Without feeling like choking him.
"Cam, I need to know in what state Sam is. To be honest, I'm still a bit angry." I had taken Cam outside for 'a smoke'.
Cam lit up a cig and took a deep breath.
"He's alright. I don't think he's that angry anymore. More irritated. But it's not all because of you."
"What you mean it's not all coz of me?" I exhaled blowing little circles with the smoke.
"Its not me to tell you all of that. Just sit down with him, don't be nervous. It'll be okay."
I sighed. "Okay, thanks."
We lit up another and laughed a bit. It made me relaxed. Cameron always found a way to get rid of the tension.
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"James, we don't need anymore bloodshed so please keep it clean with Sam."
Luna had taken me aside from everyone. She wore a really lovely black dress. She looked fit. I really didn't want to go to the soundcheck. I just wanted to be with her.
I realized that was one of the things I shouldn't be thinking or doing. That's what this whole argument started.
"I'll be gentle. I talked to Cam. It'll be okay, promise." I smiled and kissed her forhead.
I resisted the urge to kiss her lips and take her back inside.
"Text me when you're finished. I want some good shots of this show. I have a great feeling about it."
"Ofcourse, love." I hugged her sideways and walked off with the lads.
"She looks fit, James." Danny slapped my back.
"Shut up! Yeh she does. I can't think of it now." I looked back and saw Rose and her walk away.
"Awh, little Jimmy Cassells can't control his boner?" Danny got me under his arm.
