The Alpha Second Mate

The Change

9. The Change
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James led me to a room in the pack house and when we entered , he had given me the courtesy of explaining everything I needed to know about my stay in the pack house, he excused himself gently but not without the look of pity he had on his face as he closed the bedroom door.

The door closing was the final blow and it was then the tears I had managed to hold back for so long descending, I collapsed on the floor of the room and I hugged myself as I cried not caring if anyone would hear me as they passed my room door.

I couldn't sleep, no matter how many times I forced myself to, I just couldn't. The bed was good, soft in fact. The room was simple and welcoming and none of these were the cause of my sleeplessness.

I was restless and was antsy, my wolf was waking up and it was itching to come out but I was afraid, I was afraid of the pain that would come when I transformed, it will be just like the first time all over again.

How was I going to deal with this, my father had been the person to talk me through my first shift but now I was all alone, Kaden could care less about my predicament, as a matter of fact he might rejoice at my predicament.

Not many wolves have had to go through a second shift, it was common during the Great War when wolves were kept captive and when they were eventually freed had to learn how to be a wolf again, the pain was said to be excruciating for some that they died mid shift and that was hundreds of years ago.

I wanted to cry again but I couldn't, my tears must have dried up from the one I rained out hours ago, I wanted to yell but I couldn't, my father was already branded as a madman in his death and his only living descendant, me would also be branded mad as well, never!.

But I wanted this pain to end , to go away, to have a moment of happiness, I deserved it, Diana was right.

After pacing around the room a couple times more, I laid in the bed again and I had no idea when the sleep eventually enveloped me until there was a knock on the door and I jerked up from the bed.

I immediately rose to my feet and unlocked the door and a red head young lady stepped in

"We don't lock our doors in this place" she spat out in disgust as her nose scrunched up, I need not be a fortune teller to know that this woman before me disliked me.

"I am sorry" I apologized meekly, She did not acknowledge my apology rather she shoved a few items on my chest which I quickly grabbed before it was able to fall to the floor.

"Get cleaned up and meet me downstairs" she added as she excused the room immediately.

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As tempting it was to spend time in the showers I optioned not to, the red head looked like she would find any slight reason to punish me and I would not take that chance, it situation were to be different she would have acknowledged me like a Luna and would have bowed the moment she graced my presence but she held no form of respect for me, even my mate as well, naming me a whore in front of his subject, I had expected this hatred but nothing really prepares you for how painful it would feel when it finally happened.

I exited my room when I got dressed and descended the flight of stairs until I reached the ground floor, there the red head was angrily tapping her feet against the tiled floor

"You are late!" She scolded

"I apologize" I simply responded, there was no need to argue even though she had not given me a time frame to get ready when she dropped the items in my room

"Follow me" she said once again not acknowledging my apology, she stormed out the building and I trailed behind her.

We passed a lot of men and wolves training as we walked around the pack, a few stopped to stare at me and whispered between themselves whilst the others just stared without commenting. The pack was indeed vast and beauty. We got to a building which I assumed would be the dining halls.