Tears of a lonesome Violin

Sinking

I visibly shook as I stood in front of Akihiko-san's

Apartment. This is it, after this, There will be no more

'Usagi-san' , no more Beautiful whispers, no more love

making,No more tutoring. I deeply inhaled and rang the

doorbell taking a few steps back. Akihiko-san quickly

Opened the door "Misaki!" He embraced me in a breath

Taking hug, "Akihiko-san please do not invade my personal

Space." I said struggling to keep my emotionless face. "Please

Don't call me that." He begged in a whispered tone "Usami-sa-"

"Not that either !" He shouted "Call me Usagi. Please

don't leave Me. I can't live without you!" I grimaced at his

Desperate tone, "Usagi-san please excuse me, I must gather

My belongings." He tightened his grip "I refuse to let you

Leave." "Please Usagi-san let me gather my belongings."

He loosened his grip taking a step back, his bangs now

Shadowing his eyes, his jaws were clenched, and his

Face was towards the floor. "Misaki, please stay with me.

If you leave , you will only cause me trouble." My world

Crumbled, what ? Anything I do, will cause him trouble,

If I leave, I'll cause him trouble, if I stay, I'll cause him

Trouble. Tears were rushing down my cheeks as I

Fell to my knees, "Fine." I mumbled feeling fully

Empty. He smiled dragging me into his apartment

Before locking the door. Usagi-san pulled me into his bed

Room turning off the lights. "I'm going to make love

To you." He mumbled before quickly stripping himself,

Then me. During the whole time from when he stripped me

To the time when he finished I stayed silent, tears were

Falling freely down my face, I was broken, empty,

Numb. "Night Misaki." He whispered wrapping his big arms

Around my waist. After a few minutes, I heard light snoring

"Why? Why me?" I whispered covering my mouth to

Muffle my sobs. I fell asleep with tears still flowing down my

Pink stained cheeks.

~Usagi~

I woke up cold. Misaki. MISAKI! HAS HE LEFT?

I suddenly smelt the aroma of eggs and soup.

He hasn't left. Thank Kami. I quickly put on

Sweatpants and my dress shirt from the night before,

Closing the door gently I walked down the stairs with

Suzuki. I sat myself and Suzuki down and pulled out a

Cigarette. Lighting it, I saw Misaki bring over our

Breakfast, The outer rim of his eyes were a dark

pink and his usual Bright green eyes were dark,

he didn't look up at me As he sat down.

After a while of complete silence I asked

"How was practice?" He Immediately tensed "Good."

He whispered "That's Good." We both

mumbled our thanks and began Digging in

"Excuse me." He mumbled walking to

The kitchen with the barely eaten breakfast, he

Dumped it into the trash and washed the plate.

He then sprinted to his room leaving me alone and in

Complete silence. I continued to eat my breakfast.

~Misaki~

After washing my plate I sprinted to my room.

My eyes were sore due to my tears constantly

Flowing last night, "Fucking hell..." I mumbled

Grabbing my violin "Might as well practice here."

I went on my bed facing the wall. "Here it goes..."

I started to play, the music flowed through me

Like the tears down my face "I give myself to you."

I mumbled emotionlessly "Are you happy?"

The emotions stopped me in mid note

'Trouble'... 'Burden'... The words clawed at my

Soul "TroubleMaker..." I mumbled falling onto my

Bed curling up. I'm sorry... Usagi-san, I promise not

To fight anymore...