Dreamy days in west tokyo- Oneshots

Rihito-(Part 3)

Rihito PoV

I watched her walk away, my heart breaking as she did. I wanted to call out, so badly, but she would be better walking away. I know so.

I stared straight ahead, not moving or doing anything. I felt too shattered to get up.

When she talked about her school and how the guys would tease her about us, all I could do was feel terrible. Because she is dating a younger boy, she gets made fun of.

I feel so much... lesser. She would be better with one of the other guys, I know she would. When we were little, we all liked her, so why did she choose me?

The worst thing is that I'm younger than her. I can't help but think about how she would be better with any of the other, older, guys.

I felt so isolated. She and the other guys always get to see each other at school. And here I am, in another school, and another grade!

MC is so amazing, and she makes me crazy. I just wanted to ask her for confirmation, so I could know that I am good enough for her. I ended up causing her pain in the end.

That's all I seem to be doing, hurting her. Why is that? Probably because I'm a terrible person.

Why did she even stick around someone so disgusting like me?

It was kind of a jerk move to ask that, yet at the same time, I feel like she just wanted an out from our relationship.

She was probably just staying with me because she felt bad for me. All the times she said she loved me, made me dance with joy in my head. Now I'll probably never see her again.

The few things I know right now is that she probably hates my guts, and that tomorrow is going to be a disaster.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Time skip to tomorrow morning

I woke up with a lump in my throat. After MC left all I did was go to bed and sulk. I don't even remember going to bed.

Yesterday's scene kept pounding away. I rubbed my eyes and felt some dried tears across them. I can't even remember crying.

She's the only thing important to me, and all I've done is hurt her. My head crashed on to my hands as I held it, waiting for the nightmares to go away. The nightmare of not having her by my side. I pulled my hair, expecting the stinging pain to wake me up from it.

The nightmare is my life though, and as much as I wish she was beside me, she's not.

I say that over and over and over again. I say it until I believe it, but that just ends up with me chanting it endlessly.

How many times do I have to tell myself that I don't deserve her?

A random buzzing makes me look back and I see my phone inches away from me. My fingers curl around it, and I flick through the messages, searching for the one specific person.

The rest of the guys wish me happy birthday at first, but it seems that MC got home and they were there. According to Jo she cried herself to sleep, and refused to talk to anyone.

That doesn't seem right. If she didn't care about me then why is she crying? Shouldn't she be happy that she's free from me?

Take said that he heard her talking to herself. Something about how it's her fault and that I don't love her anymore. Of course I love her, that's why I'm letting her go.

This doesn't add up, it makes no sense. My mind spins and spins but the confusion stays.

...No.