Never have I ever

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Day 8.

Julie spend the night with me . It suprise me a little to know today is Monday already. I have lost tract of time and days. Julie staying with me, without judging me helps me feel somewhat better. My heart doesn't ache like it did on the first few days.

We were getting ready to for a hang out today. I needed it to clear my mind so without much say I agree to her plan.

Last night I made Julie read the letter. She was so angry with me that she make me sneak out of my room to Kitchen for a  matchstick. We sat in the floor and she burn the piece of paper. And put into the dustbin. I don't know what's so funny. I laughed out. I laughed for the first time this week.  She joins me .

My parents shouts from their room to be quiet.

She lays on the bed with me in silent. She caress her fingers   on my cheeck and says, "happiness suits you".
I blinked. I jerked off her hands and teased,"you know I get attached to a person very quick. If you were single I'mma date you".

She face me properly and said, " Then, I won't even make you cry".
She face the ceiling and asked,"Let's say You ran across him one fine day, what would you say to him?"

That thought never crossed my mind, not even once. Now that she mentioned it that thought alone was the last thought I had in mind before I drifted to sleep.

I put on a cute pink top and match it with black jeans . Julie with her purple top and black jeans .
We took a last look at the mirror before we left our room.

We went to bookstore first and she bought me a book. I got us matching bookmarks. She says today is about me and I should spend zero cents.

I saw her on her phone. She got a boyfriend and he must want to spend time with her. I told her she could invite him but she says 'its a girl's day out ' and dismissed my whinning request.

She bought me my favourite flower and our last stop is at the cafe.
We took our seat and the waitress came and took our order.
She's a very caring person and I am very glad she's my friend.

When we came out of the cafe, a guy held the door open for us to walked out. A girl hands laced  around his arm.. I raised my head a little to take a look and I was frozen at the spot.

Charles.

That name rings a bell in my whole nervous system. I almost forgot about him today and all came back flooding once I saw him standing in front of me.

He gave me a weak 'sorry' smile.
Julie reached for my hand and walked me outside.

She has never seen Charles. At my stiffness she asked if I'm alright .
My voice came out weak when I answered "That guy is Charles."
Julie look at me with sympathy.

It was only yesterday Julie asked me what I would do if I ran into him. I didn't see that day coming so soon and I haven't prepared myself an answer yet.

But Julie seems to have a plan in her mind.She walked back in the cafe before I could stop her.

I saw her bumping onto him on purpose with his order. Expresso. His white polo shirt got stained.
I saw his girlfriend raised from her seat. I saw Charles assuring her to not worry and stay seated, gesturing with his hand.

Julie turns out and smile like she won the lottery. I saw Charles face dropped. Then, his eyes caught mine. That one face that I used to adore so much, now it disguit me.

When she came out I asked what did she told him
She said, " jerk " . I don't believe her. But I don't pressed either.
Somehow seeing him feel guilty mitigates the pain I felt.

And one day I won't feel the pain anymore. I'll move on . I don't forgive him nor  I will forget. I'll take this as a lesson to not trust so easily and get attached so soon.

I will heal.