Am I broken

Part 1

I've never wanted anything in my entire life, I've always lived a boring life , everyday is the same in my world.

Friendship? .I have friends tho they've always been my besties since high school ,but they all have new friends now and they're still all I got . We all went to different universities so we only meet up during festive periods at home
I'm actually the loudest and funniest friend in my squad, but outside I'm that boring girl who can't have a proper conversation with humans

Family? You just can't hate your family right?
I'm the last child of five, I love them so much don't get me wrong.
I had a weak immune when I was young so I was always in and out of the hospital , and my family believed I was being possessed or part of evil spirits gang, I was always taken to church for deliverance, this has to be one of most miserable moments in my life the deliverance was terrible, I always got whipped with broom every sundays , had to carry a heavy bag of salt while praying, I was 12 at the time, my family even kept good news from me so I won't jinx it , my siblings made fun of me calling me witch every time , I was so scared that I stopped taking to my friends at school so I won't influence them

Relationship? I love "love" I'm a huge fan of romance , I love seeing people in relationship I'm obsessed with romantic books and movies I admire people inlove but me Falling in love in real life ..... nah