Obsession (18+) (FINISHED) (2024)

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Riley

Paris wasn't at Algebra.

Paris wasn't at Biology.

Paris was nowhere to be found.

I eventually accepted that he didn't want to be near me right now, so the fact that I was hoping he'd show up to one of my classes was pure idiocy.

He was twenty.

He was a millionaire.

He didn't need to be here.

But I just wanted to see him. I just wanted to see him and ask him, why?

Why did I end up not being good enough for him?

I got the hint eventually.

He was happy last night, but...

Really? This morning did he just have his doubts and scurry off like a pussy?

I fucking hated myself.

What was it about me that had guys first want to fuck me, and then go, nope?

I walked outside during passing block before lunch and stared at the sky for a full on ten minutes, and I was wondering what I was going to do with my life.

I felt myself wanting to die suddenly.

I honestly did.

Would anyone miss me? Violet wasn't my real mother, and Julie would be happy with Claire.

If everyone I loved was being taken from me, and it was impossible to be loved, then why was I here?

My life was a mistake, anyway.

I wasn't supposed to be born.

I slapped myself internally.

Just because Paris was being a jackass didn't mean I had to go kill myself.

I stared back up at the sky.

But... honestly... I was going to die anyway, wasn't I?

I was going to be murdered anyway.

I wasn't supposed to be born.

No one would miss me because everyone else was dead.

Why not?

All this emotional torment would vanish, and I bet hell was a better place than here.

But how would I do it painlessly? Stabbing myself would hurt, jumping off a building would be agonizing and terrifying, honestly, and... taking pills would suck.

How did people do these things when they didn't want pain?

"Hey, babe," someone said from behind me, and I spun around to find Ryan there.

I sighed, turning back to the sky. "What?"

He wouldn't miss me either. He wouldn't miss his mother if she was murdered.

He'd only pretend to feel bad because it gave him attention.

He walked over to me. "What are you doing out here? You look like you're planning your own demise."

Really? Was it that obvious?

"I don't know," I stated then; the only thing I could respond with right now.

"You wanna come inside with me?" Ryan said. "They got burgers today. The best food the school can make."

"No," I responded, "I'm not hungry."

"Alright," he answered, and then stopped. "Riley," he said then, making me look at him, "whatever you're planning. Don't do it. It's not worth it."

And he walked away.

I stared after him.

Huh?

How did he...?

But I looked back ahead, seeing Veo standing next to a tree, watching me with dark eyes.

What the fuck was happening right now? I thought he'd ditch me by now.

Veo stared at me for a moment before speaking into his earpiece.

Who was he talking to?

Also... did he hear me and Ryan's conversation?

I just stared at him before turning and walking back inside.

"Riley," Veo said before I could disappear through the doors.

I turned. "What?"

He stepped up to me, and I remained still as his tall form hovered over me. "Paris is wondering what's going on."

I blinked. "What are you talking about?"

"You're acting weird," Veo said.

I shook my head. "I'm always acting weird, and why does he care? He just left me thing morning with a note and now is easing me back into school, tell him I got the hint, okay? I'm going inside now."

And I walked back through the doors.

But something caught my arm, pulling me back outside. "Riley," Veo said, "Riley, what are you 'planning?'"

I stared at him.

"What Ryan said," Veo stated, "Paris is on the phone right now, I told him about your conversation. What are you planning?"

"To destroy the world," I joked.

"Riley," Veo said with more urgency.

I sighed. "Nothing, okay? This happens a lot and I never go through with it, I'm too much of a pussy."

I pulled out of his grip then, throat constricting.

"Tell Paris that I love him," I said, "even if he doubts me, but also tell him that I understand if he's upset with me or something. I know I'm hard to deal with. I don't know what I did, but I accept it, okay? Now leave me alone."

Veo stared at me. "Riley," he tried to reason.

I pulled out of his grip. "I said to leave me alone."

And I walked inside then.