For her

Apology

Hey, to whom this may concern,

I am not a good person, I've lied, I stole, I've broken, and overall I don't believe I am a good person.

But even tho I did all of that, you are the one regret, I wish I never made. It's kinda funny, the more I see u the more I miss how we were, this is not a love note... and quite frankly I don't deserve that either. No no, this is an apology, an apology for all the wrongdoings I've done, every last one of them. I know I wasn't part of u for a long but even so, when I look back at what we had it's nothing but pure bliss. I miss you, and I can't say that about many people, I truly do miss you. If u remember not much, remember this, I miss you. I never truly wanted to hurt you, even tho I did. I never wanted to deceive you, even tho that's all I've ever done, I just didn't know what I wanted, and it's hard to accept that when what I wanted was right in front of me all along. Words can never truly express this, but I hope I can make it up to u somehow... someway... one way or another I want to be there. Even if u don't want me to be id gladly stick my neck out for u, id risks my life if it meant u would succeed, id knell over if it meant u can get a step up in life. I wanna be your support, I can safely say I've never felt like this for anyone, I know I'm undeserving of you, I don't ask for forgiveness, I ask for an ear, if but for a moment, even if for just a whisper, I need u to listen to me. You are strong, brave, kind, and wonderful, you are the most inspiring person I know, knowing you, you must think I'm lying to you but rest assured, I will never deceive u again. I believe you will do amazing things, rise where I have fallen, grow where I fall short. I know u can, I believe you can. I want no I need you to do better, I can't speak for anyone other than myself and I'm not too sure if I'm doing that correctly either. I wanna help you. I wanna be part of your success, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna... not be your regret.

-Al