Love I had to lose

chapter one and the only one I will make

I'm so tired of being a nobody like life would be so much better without me in it I can't say people will be happy that I go but at least I'll be in a better place then this hell hole we call earth I'd finally get go be with my grandma again after two years of her take that step before me I can't wait to see you the love that I had to lose cuz it was your time and I'm sorry I couldn't stay by your side but I'll be by your side real soon and I'll be able to be a mom to the 3 kids I lost I can't do it here down on earth it's not meant for and I'll be the better me when I'm up there with you I'm just so sad all the time that I don't want to be a live