Needing You (you, Series #1)

CHAPTER 21

“Sa rooftop? Really?” he said, confused. “Now tell me, ano ba yang sasabihin mo at kailangan pa nating humiwalay sa kanila?”

“I like you” without any hesitation.

“What did you say?” parang gusto nang lumabas ng puso ko sa kaba.

“I like you,” mahina kong sabi.

Napasinghap siya sa sinabi ko. Why? Hindi mo ba inaasahan? Why is it like that? Bakit ganyan ang reaction mo? And dami kong gustong itanong sa kanya sa simpleng ginawa niya lang. Parang gusto kong umiyak, magmakaawa na sana ako na lang. Mahirap bang ako na lang ang piliin mo?

“You know what you are to me, right?"ito na nga ba sinasabi ko. “At alam mong may gusto ako kay lea, diba?” he carefully asked. Yeah i know. And it hurts.

I just nodded. I understand, really. Pero mali ba'ng ako naman. Ako naman ang tingnan mo. Sa akin naman ang atensyon mo. Lalo pa't alam mo naman na wala kang pag-asa sa kanya.

"Sorry, sinabi ko lang para alam mo." nakayukong sabi ko. Ayoko salubungin ang tingin niya, natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka mabasa ko ang expression ng mata niya.

“Baka panandalian lang yan, kelly.” and by that? napatingin ako sa kanya. Sinong nagsabi na panandalian lang to? Sana kung panandalian lang to, hindi ko sana hihingin ang atensyon mo. Hindi ko sana hihilingin na sana ako na lang.

“San nga panandalian lang to, dray.” malungkot kong sabi. Nang masabi ko yun ay tumalikod na ako at naglakad na.

Sana walang magbago. Sana wag kang mailang pag nanjan ako— but before that, i looked at him.

“I will not stop, now that you know I will chase your attention dray. Remember that, I will not stop.” basa sa mukha niya ang awa at gulat. Yes, you heard me right. Why not take the risk? Walang mawawala sa akin.

Hindi na ako bumalik sa classroom, i just said na sumakit ulo ko and i have to go. Hawak ko naman ang wallet ko at ipapahatid ko nalang yung bag ko sa bahay. Because of the event in the school, walang pasok pero pupunta ng school for the participations. So i need to go there and waste my time. Kagabi lang inabot ni damien yung bag ko, i was expecting dray kase same lang kami ng daan. Stupid, malamang di yun papayag. Now i just have to get ready for this freaking day. I wear t-shirt top paired it with mom jeans and a white shoes. I also paired it with a hand bag and i wore a little bit of make up. Just the light one. I let my hair down and wear a thin headband. I just have to wear our id and ready to go. Napatingin ako sa bintana nang may bumusina, i wasn't expecting a visitor at this hour. Bumaba na nga ako at pinuntahan ang tao sa labas. Is it mom and dad? Who could it be.

“Kel!” it's jace.

“What are you doing here?”

“Oa si bakla, malamang para sabay tayo.”

I just rolled my eyes and pinapasok siya. I ask him kung kumain na ba siya and he said yes, mabuti naman. Hindi niya matitikman luto kong mas masarap pa sa jollibee, kidding. After a minute, i just sprayed perfume and umalis na kami. Kahit 7:30 na hindi kami late, palibhasa’y may event kaya kahit 10 na kami makakapunta it's fine pero as what I've said, we’re in 1st section kaya kailangan naming pumunta as early as this. After what happened that day, hindi ako papayag na magiging awkward kami ni dray. Lalapit ako nang lalapit sa kanya, hindi ako mahihiya. I will steal leandale’s spot in his heart, kung makakaya ko. Gosh, i sounded like an obsessed girl. Ah basta, ganun gagawin ko. Nag dala ako ng lunchbox, nilagay ko yung baked mac and cheese na ibibigay ko kay dray. I made for everyone actually pero i put dray’s part in a gift bag. Sasabihin ko na rin kila cloe na may gusto ako kay dray so that they will become more cautious sa mga words nila when I’m around them. I will make my move right now.

Nakarating na nga kami sa school and as expected crowded na sa buong quadrangle. The ssg officers conducted a bazaar na related sa event kaya puno ng tao rito sa field. Nagmadali kaming pumunta sa classroom dahil sakin, he already know naman na nahihilo ako pag nasa maraming tao ako.

“Kel!” nasa pinto palang ako ay rinig ko na ang boses ni cloe.

“May baon, anong dala mo?” i handed my lunchbox to them, “Wow, baked mac and cheese!”

“Pwede mang-hingi?” jace said.

“Bawal.” he rolled his eyes. “Para saming magkakaibigan lang to,”

“Kaibigan na rin ako ni kelly noh,”

“Inalok kita niyan sa bahay sabi mo ayaw mo.” I said.

“I didn't know na baked mac and cheese pala yun!” Asik niya. “Sige na please” he pouted. And with that, all of us groaned. Like ew??

“Bigyan niyo na nga, kadiri ka.” He smiled from ear to ear nang sabihin ko yun.

“That one kel, kanino yan?” Damien asked. tumingin silang lahat sa dinala kong gift bag.

“Ah this? Para kay dray.” tumaas ang isang kilay ni shisly, si cloe naman bakas sa mukha nito ang pagkalito, si damien naman he just smirked, si karly there nakangiti and jace—nvm he's eating.

“Para saan? Nakakatampo ha.” cloe asked.

“Tell me Ramirez, do you like dray?” nanlaki mata ko. Nagugulat pa rin ako sa mga ganto, binalik ko na ulit ang calm face ko.

“So what if i am.” mayabang kong sabi. Napasinghap si cloe at sinamaan naman ako ng tingin ni shisly, why??

“You know na may gusto siyang iba diba?”

“So what? Hindi ko yun kaibigan and walang akong maalala na bawal yung ganto”

“It’s not bawal, we’re just concern sayo.” Why?

“Dray already confessed to leandale,” nagulat man sa sinabi ni shisly pero i still keep my face calm.

“That’s good,” i said, umupo na rin ako sa upuan ko and inayos mga gamit. Naiiyak ako pero no, hindi pwede. “I will chase his attention while he do it to leandale.”

Narinig kong bumuntong hininga sila cloe and shisly. It's not bad, after all ako naman ang masasaktan hindi sila. I will take this risk, matagal nang nanahimik itong nararamdaman ko and everytime na I'll just slide all the pain in my sleeves it became even more worst. That's why i will do this, i will prove to him na I'm worth it. Besides, mahal pa rin ni leandale yung ex niya.

“Girl, nag confess ka na?” napatingin ako sa gilid ko, it's jace. I just hm-ed. “Ano sabi?”

“That’ll be my concern, mind your own business” i smirked as i said that. Sinamaan niya ako ng tingin, tinaasan ko naman siya ng kilay.

“Whatever, thanks sa dala mo. Ang sarap, gawa ka lagi niyan ha.” He said and kissed my cheeks. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. Natanggal naman ang atensyon ko kay jace nang pumasok si dray. Inayos ko ang damit and hair ko at tumayo.

“Hi dray,” he just looked at me with his cold eyes and walk pass through me. Hinabol ko siya and inabot yung dala kong gift bag, thankfully kinuha niya.

“What’s this?”

“Baked mac and cheese, i know you’ll like that.” I smiled as I said that but it fades nang pumunta siya sa may basurahan and throw my gift for him. “I don't like anything from you, stop bothering me please.”

“No.” I firmly said, “Sinabi ko naman sa—” i stopped nang sipain niya yung desk niya.

“I don't care.”

“Drayce! What do you think your doing?” sigaw ni karly. I looked at her and whispered ‘it's okay, i got this.’

“I don't care too kung hindi mo papansinin mga efforts ko but i will not stop.” bumuntong hininga siya at umalis ulit sa classroom.

“Look what have you done, Ramirez.” tiningnan ko si shisly, what? “Sarili mo lang iniisip mo,” Selfish may it seems pero it's time for me to become selfless. Hindi ko na pinakinggan lahat ng sinasabi nila and umalis.

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