»if you tell« l.r.h

Chapter eleven

Ally's P.O.V

„She's gonna be fine. Try to sleep for a bit we'll go see her later alright?"

It was probably the early morning already. Cody tried to get me to sleep all night but it was impossible.

As soon as I drifted off into my dreams I saw her.

Laying there on the ground.

So helpless.

So torn.

Broken.

And I guess that's what she really is. Helpless. Torn. Broken.

But what do you expect.

Nothing.

It's not her fault.

You can't blame it on Jake either to be honest.

We know he's sick.

He can't control his anger.

It's not his fault.

So who's fault is it really?

Who controls what happens to us?

If there's a God out there.

If he is out there why can't he make the world happy?

Why does he have to make things like this happen?

Things where we blame someone for it all. But in the end it's not their fault.

It's not Jakes fault.

Sure you could say it's his fault.

But is it really?

These thoughts cross my mind every single second.

We could've saved her.

We could.

But we didn't.

And it's too late now.

It happened.

We can't just press rewind.

What if we could.

Would we do something differently?

No, we wouldn't.

Because if we did, who would promise us it'll turn out better?

It could turn out worse at least.

And we're scared of that, aren't we?

Scared something worse could happen.

Fear.

Fear of what could happen.

„Stop thinking about what could happen okay?" Jake tears me out of my thoughts.

I look into his deep brown eyes and I see something that would get us all out of here. This.

Love.

Love is what makes us strong.

Love is what makes us hold on.

Love is what gives us hope.

„I can't stop thinking about her. About Jake. About everything. It's just too much"

„Do you wanna take the week off school?" He asks stroking a piece of hair out of my face behind my ear.

Shit.

School.

I haven't thought about that at all.

And I started crying again.

„Hey, shhh, it's alright I'll call them and call you sick for the week it's fine" Cody is the best.

He stays by side through everything.

We've only been dating for almost two years which is a lot for some and nothing for others.

But in these two years a lot has happened and we worked through it and honestly I wouldn't want any other person by my side right now.

Except Avery.

I close my eyes in attempt to fall asleep.

I fall into a light slumber which I'm happy about.

Light kisses were placed all over my face causing me to wake up.

„What are you doing?" I laugh.

„Waking you up. It's 2:06 and some Luke guy called earlier. Said something about visiting Avery the doctors called him everything's fine she's getting better"

„Can we go see her?" I ask.

He nodded „of course"

„We need to pick up Luke though"

„Don't worry he's coming over in ten"

„I need to get dressed" I quickly get up and run towards the bathroom to clean myself up a bit.

I put on my collage hoodie and a pair of black leggings and some black converse.

„Hey Ally how'd you sleep?" Luke has already arrived.

„Oh I didn't sleep at all! How'd you sleep?"

„Fine. The boys were up super early playing Fifa though" he laughs.

„Yeah sounds like them" I laugh.

„We should probably get going" he says.

„Yeah uh Cody we could take your car?"

„Yeah course" he takes his key and get in the car.

Luke calls shotgun so I had to sit in the back.

He claims that he couldn't sit in the back because his legs wouldn't fit but whatever.

„Can you please turn on the music?" I whine not being able to follow their conversation.

I'm glad Luke and Cody get along well.

I feel like all of this is the beginning of an amazing group of friends.

Cody turns on the mix tape we created and panic! At the disco came on.

„IS IT STILL ME WHO MAKES YOU SWEAT? AM I WHO YOU THINK ABOUT IN BED" I scream as soon as the song begins.

Cody and I share the same taste in music which is great because we never have to argue about it.

„Guess you like panic?" Luke chuckles.

„Are you serious? They're amazing! I love them" I say.

„I know! I do too"he laughs.

We continue to jam out to panic until we arrive at the hospital.

As we arrive the car falls silent and it stays quiet on our way to Avery's room.

I hold Cody's hand as if I'm holding onto dear life.

Maybe I am
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Sorry this is short. Sorry this is a filler. But my life was actually kinda busy the past days. But I'll update regularly soon again:)