It's Always Been You | Jennie x Fem Reader Oneshots

The Letter

Plot : Jennie and her best friend stopped talking but it feels more like a breakup than a friendship breaking. Never in a lifetime did she think a letter would bring back her feelings for her best friend who she thought she moved on from. 

Genre : Angst

Inspired by Closure & You're losing me by Taylor Swift.
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Me and Y/N stopped talking almost three months ago. Till this day, I have no idea what really happened. 

Y/N was the new student at my school last year, we both started talking in PE Class. We had same classes too. A few days after I met her I found out she had a boyfriend. We would often talk about it, her boyfriend went to a different school in the same city as us. She would often meet up with him as well. 

It's a shame I never got to meet him, not that I would care about him anyway. She was the pretty, popular, straight girl of the school. That's what others viewed her to be anyway. I saw much more than that, under her perfect girl facade was a small insecure girl who was just trying to fit in. 

We never talked much in the beginning, most of our conversations were about her boyfriend. That was until they broke up. The strange thing about it was she looked so in love with him but after the breakup, she did not shed a single tear over him. 

I was there through it all, making sure she was okay. That was when I realized.. I had feelings for my best friend. 

After the breakup with her first boyfriend, Felix she slowly healed herself. Soon enough she and another guy started hanging out and it was like that all over again, me and her only talking about her new boyfriend, Minho. I tried, tried so hard to move on but what I did not realize was while my best friend was busy dating other guys I was slowly starting to fall in love with her.

We started hanging out a lot, my heart always speeding up whenever she was near me. We would go watch movies, play games together, gossip together. I was there for her no matter what she went through, even when she broke up with her second boyfriend. 

People tend to call her a playgirl but my heart just loved her too much for me to let her go like that and so even when she got together with her third boyfriend, I managed to put on a fake smile and support her through all of it. I knew that there was no possibility of her ever reciprocating my feelings, but I'm just too soft for all of it. 

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Her third boyfriend drove us apart. She spent all of her time with him, it got to the point where we rarely texted each other. She found new friends, but deep inside I still cared for her. I knew they didn't treat her as good as I did. 

When she finally broke up with the third jerk, she realized Oh! i have a friend named Jennie! 

And that day, I woke up in the morning with a long letter. 

Hey, Jennie. I know you probably wouldn't expect me to contact you out of nowhere like this, but I just needed to get some things off of my chest. When I first met you, I never realized you'd become this close to me. It scared me how bad I wanted to spend my time with you, I was young and immature and scared. I know I should've never just cut contact like that, you were my best friend, but.. I wanted more. I broke up with Felix because I realized that.. I fell in love with you. I know that gives me no excuse to treat you like a jerk but hear me out completely. I was in love with a girl, and my parents would never expect me. I'm sorry that I called you a clingy, immature and crazy girl. I never meant any of those words if anything, I was the dumb one. I tried getting together with two other guys to move on, even tried cutting you off but I realized no one would ever compare to you, Jennie Ruby Jane Kim. I love you. I hurt you and I sincerely apologize, I love you so much it hurts. Please, one more chance. 

The sad part about the letter was, my heart won't start anymore for her. She's losing me. I called her up, we met at my house. 

"I can't find a pulse, my heart won't start anymore for you." Were the first words that left my mouth.

"What? I don't understand-"

"I know you don't." I said, smiling bitterly at her. They say, you don't know what you got until it's gone. 

"Stop. You're losing me." I said. She looked at me painfully. 

But, how long could we be a sad song?

"I gave you my best, my endless empathy and all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier. Fighting your hurting words. And what do you do at the end? Ignore me! And you know what? I wouldn't be friends with me either, after all I am just a pathelogical people pleaser, who only wanted you to see her. Everyday, I would lie in my bed waiting for you to do something, say something. You chose nothing, so I have nothing for you now. I'm tired of being a Pheonix rising from the ashes, mending all her gashes. You just dealt the last blow." I look at her emotionlessly. 

"Jennie, please give me one more chance, you know I explained my situation in the let-" She started, trying to fight back but no. 

"Yes I got your letter, yes I'm doing better. I know that we're over, I don't need your closure." I said, not even caring about her at this point. 

I'm done. 
You're losing me. 

"You're all I want. It's not your fault. I love you and I will win you back, Nini." 
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Part two based on afterglow by taylor swift?
Word count : 1.1k+