Needing You (you, Series #1)

CHAPTER 22

Lumabas ako and chase dray, i want to talk to him. Not for my feelings, gusto kong tanungin tungkol dun sa confession niya kay leandale. Gusto kong ipamukha sa kanya na wala siyang pag asa kay leandale!

“Dray,” tawag ko sa kanya, nasa room kami. Room na hindi na ginagamit, it is filled with so many broken chairs.

“For heaven's sake Klare Ysabel! What do you want this time?” nagulat ako sa sigaw niya.

“Gusto ko lang tanungin yung tungkol sa pag amin mo kay leandale.”

“So alam mo na, yet you're still here desperately pushing yourself into me!”

“Did it end up well?” disregarding his remarks with this question.

“That's” my heart raced when he walk towards me. “none of your business” one move at magkikiss na talaga kami.

“Why can't you love me back?” with that, one tear in my left eye fell. “I am always here for you, you don't need to beg, to chase or to do anything dray. Why not me? Why her?” nakatingin lang siya sakin, naaawa. I looked at his lips. “I've always wanted to kiss those lips,” I touched his lips using mine, it's soft. Hindi niya tinanggal, hindi rin siya gumalaw, he just let me kiss him. After 5 seconds, inalis ko na. “Sa limang sigundong yun, i felt like im the most lucky person in the world.”

“Im sorry kel,” ang sikip ng dibdib ko, lumuha lang ako nang lumuha. “I can't force myself to love you kase ikaw lang din ang masasaktan, she made a promise to me. She likes me too kelly pero she said it's complicated pa raw. After she fix her problem then we will pursue each other.” natulala nalang ako sa sinasabi niya. What? She likes him too? Why? No, that can't be.

“W-why? Then,” i wiped all my tears. “Then if may problem pa siya edi may pag asa pa. Dray please.”

“Im sorry kelly.”

“No. No one will ever dictate me from what i want.”

“Face the consequences then,” he said after he left.

Consequences? You mean yung selos na mararamdaman ko everytime na magkasama kayo? I've already faced that, every single time. After everything that I've thought, I wiped all the tears and fix myself. Pagkatapos kong ayusin ang sarili ay lumabas na ako. Nagulat ako nang may tao sa pinto, no mga tao. Dalawa, kissing. Dray and her. This is one of the consequences, i might say. I just watched them with no emotion at all. How can I react to this? I want to laugh right now, alam naman siguro ni dray na nandito pa ako sa room na yun and yet.. I laughed at my own thought, of course why would he think about me? Wtf. Tumingin si leandale sa akin at nanlaki ang mata niya. Hindi niya ba alam na nandito ako? Kaya naman humiwalay siya kay dray.

“K-kel,” I laughed, kaya ba tipo niya to kase cute? Acting like innocent? “Kanina ka pa jan?”

“Hmm yea,” para bang nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig ang mukha niya, syempre this is also the place where she kissed her ex. Ex? Nah.

“Oh, okay. Haha I'll go na dray, see you later. Bye kel.” nagmamadaling sabi niya. Tiningnan ko ang mukha ni dray, sad? Face the consequences too, dray.

“Is this the consequences that you're talking about?” i chuckled. “Immune na ako rito.”

“Whatever kelly.” at umalis siya. Umalis na rin ako sa lugar na yun.

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I received a call from karly saying na nasa court sila. It's damien’s game, sa basketball. Mag c-cheer daw sila kaya papunta rin ako ron. I will deal this feeling later. Makikita ko na naman yung mga dati kong crush, funny. Pag pasok ko sa court ay sumalibong sa akin ang napakadaming tao. Hinanap ko agad sila karly and thankfully hindi naman sila masyadong malayo, tumakbo na ako papunta ron but then unfortunately—yes ngayon pa talaga—nabunggo ako ng isa sa mga basketball player. And again, unfortunately dati ko pang crush! JUST WTF!

“I'm sorry, miss” tumingin siya sa akin, pero umiwas ako ng tingin. “Oh kel! Ikaw pala yan, wow ang ganda mo na.” na??? Are you fucking kidding me?

“Haha yes it's me josh, I'm sorry too.”

“This is crazy, kailan ka ba nag confess sa akin?” inulit pa, tangina.

“I can't remember na eh” he's still remembering it for fuck sake!

“Ah yea, naalala ko na. 7th grade? Yes yes, wow grabe. Look at you, glow up i might say.” Oa neto.

“Haha yea, wag mo na ulit ulitin pa. Past is past.” awkward kong sabi.

“Oh C'mon,” favorite word yung ‘oh’? So annoying. “Cheer mo ako ha, gaganahan ako niyan.” I just smiled at him and bid ny goodbye. Duh, kalaban mo kaibigan ko bat kita iccheer.

“Akala ko si dray gusto mo? Sino naman yun?” it's cloe.

“Ex crush, ang oa niya.” hindi pa rin ako pinapansin ni shisly. Whatever. Umupo nalang ako kahit sobrang ingay ni cloe, iniinsist niyang yun nalang daw gawin kong crush. Nainis ako ron kaya naman umalis ako ron at tumabi kay karly. Sumandal ako sa balikat niya. Kamusta kaya siya? She patted my arm, from that i want to cry. She's like a mom to me, meron kayang nag ccomfort sa kanya?

“That's fine, atleast nag risk ka.” whatever karls.

In any moment mag sstart na raw ang match kaya naman kanya kanyang sigaw ang mga estudyante ng mga gusto nilang manalo. Naubos na siguro boses ng iba pero si cloe buhay na buhay pa rin. Kasama niya si shisly, kami dapat tatlo niyan pero i have to distance myself. Si karly naman ay sinisigaw ang pangalan ni damien. First match will be our section and section 3, room nila josh. Bago pa lang mag simula ang laban ay tumingin si josh sa may banda namin, hinahanap ako. At nang mahanap niya na ako ay nag form ito ng heart sa taas ng ulo niya!? May ibang kinilig, mostly mga nasa baba ng inuupuan namin at yung iba naman ay tiningnan kami. Ako rather. What is wrong with this person?? Nagulat ako nang lumapit siya sa emcee at kinuha ang mic???

“Hi klare ysabel, cheer mo ako ha. Pag nanalo ako rito, aayain kita mag coffee date.” nag yiee ang lahat!! WTF! I don't like coffee, masyadong nag dedesisyon tong tao na to!

“Diba crush mo yan dati kel? Anyare sa kanya? Nireject ka pa niya tapos ngayon parang asong naulol.” natawa ako sa sinabi ni karly.

“Ewan ko ba jan, nabunggo ko siya kanina diba. Sabi niya ang ganda ko raw, baliw na yan.”

Hinanap ko si dray sa mga tao. And there, nasa mga players siya of course he's one of the players. Nandun din si leandale, they're talking. They're sweet. Ako dapat yan eh.

“Ang sweet nila dray,” rinig kong sabi ni shisly, did she emphasized that? Well, i don't care.

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I was sitting in one of the bench here in our school, napakainit kase. It's so good to be back here in the Philippines after everything that happened. Gusto ko lang bisitahin and reminisce my highschool life. It's been 5 years since that day happened. Kung hindi ko siguro tinuloy, kung hindi ko siguro pinilit ang sarili ko—wala, hindi ito mangyayari. Kamusta na kaya siya, 5 years na akong nagpapanggap na naka move na ako sa kanya pero no. He's still—cliché may it seems— the one for me. I mean he's still my greatest love. Napag desisyonan kong ipagpatuloy nalang dito ang pag aaral ko ng batas. Namimiss ko na rin sila karly e, sa school na pinasukan niya ako mag eenroll. Pero i should face again the consequences. Nandun silang lahat, except kay damien. I saw him in U.S, gosh he's a mess. I don't know what happened and I don't want to know. I have my problems too, i will deal this first after them.

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