I quietly sneak back to my room making sure not to wake up my brother. I take a quick shower then go to bed and fall asleep instantly from the exhaustion. I wake up at 1 pm with a little hangover. I walk to the kitchen to make my coffee hoping that I will feel better. Lewis is on the massage table in the living room only wearing his underwear.
- Did you have fun last night? – asks John as he sees me.
- Yes, it was really good. – I smile at him.
- When did you get home?
- Around four, I think. – I lie to him and go to the coffee maker.
John starts massaging Lewis and I sit down with my latte watching them.
- Wow, man, did you bring home a girl last night? – asks John all of a sudden.
- What? No way, you know I don't date. – says Lewis nervously.
- Well, your body is telling me differently. – he says pressing the hips of Lewis. – You can't lie to me. I can feel that you had hell of a night in the bedroom. Sara, who was the lucky lady yesterday? I bet it was that blond from the marketing department, she has been eyeing you like a piece of meat for months now. – says John and he looks at me waiting me to confirm his theory.
- Sara, you have something on your neck. – says John and stops massaging Lewis.
I quickly put my hands on my neck trying to hide it from John but it is too late. He comes closer.
- Is that a hickey? Wait... - he says and stops.
Lewis sits up on the massage table and looks at his best friend silently. After a couple of seconds, John turns around.
- Please tell me you didn't fuck my sister. – he says threatening.
- I can explain... - tries Lewis.
- How? She slipped and fell on your dick? – John is shouting.
- And you... - he turns to me. – You said that you will be on your best behaviour. Is sleeping around with him not causing any problems for you? – he yells walking towards me.
- First of all, tone it down. – I stand up. – Don't you dare speak to me this way, like I am a fucking whore. Yes, we had sex and I accept if that makes you feel uncomfortable. I am sorry but only because you work with him and he is your best friends. I shouldn't have done that but I will not tolerate you yelling at me because I slept with someone and I will not tolerate you judging me because of it. – I yell at him and storm off to my room.
I am so angry and scared at the same time because John looked exactly like my father when he got angry and beat the living shit out of me. I put on my training outfit in seconds and I escape the apartment running away from feeling scared and helpless. I put my phone into flight mode so my brother couldn't see where I am and I jog towards the forest and start running as fast as I can. I run until I can't feel my feet anymore, so I turn around and make my way home very anxious about what will happen. I just can't shake John's angry image out of my head but I don't have a choice, I have to face him. I enter the apartment feeling exhausted and scared.
- Where have you been? We were worried sick. – says John and I can see regret on his face.
- I went running. – I answer and collapse on the floor trying to stretch my aching legs.
Lewis is watching quietly from the couch.
- For two and a half hours? – asks my brother.
I wasn't aware of the time so I check my phone to see how much I ran.
- Yeah, 24 kilometres, sorry I didn't notice the time. – I say.
- Listen, I am really sorry for yelling at you and scaring you, I really shouldn't have. – says John apologetically. – I talked with Lewis about it and I don't want to be in the way of your happiness if this is what you want. I will step aside and let you guys figure it out.
- Thank you, this means a lot and I am sorry too for the way you found out, it's just this is all new and we didn't have time to talk it through. – I say.
- You don't have to apologise, you are an adult and I reacted very badly, I promise it won't happen ever again, I don't want to scare you. What do you say we have pizza tonight? I can go and grab it now, you must be hungry after burning all those calories. – says John changing the subject.
- Only if it is from the usual place, I just can't get enough of it. – I smile at my brother letting him know that I forgive him.
I mean he is not perfect but he is trying his best to make me feel welcome and loved and I really appreciate his efforts. It means a lot to me to have someone to trust because over my time here I realised that I can trust him and Lewis as well. They are good people who would never hurt me and they want only the best for me.
John leaves the apartment and I am left alone with Lewis. I painfully get up from the floor making my way to the couch because we need to talk about what happened last night and today.
- Well, this was awkward. – I say sitting next to him. – But I think we need to talk.
- I agree. Are you okay? – he asks. – I was really worried when you stormed off, I could see that you are scared but I thought you just needed some time to calm down, but then you didn't return...
- Yes, I am fine but sometimes when I feel threatened I just run away and keep running until exhaustion. This is my coping mechanism... - I explain.
- Give me your leg. I think you deserve a good massage after 24k. – he smiles and I do as he says. He carefully starts massaging my legs and it feels wonderful. – So about last night... I meant everything I said. I have been thinking a lot about you in these past few months and I would like to give us a try, if you feel the same way. – he says shyly.
- I meant what I said too. – I remember back on last night. – I know I shouldn't feel about you this way, but I can't stop it. I want to try it but only if it doesn't bother John. I don't want to make him uncomfortable. Did he say anything to you?
- Well, he was pretty pissed off until I told him that I am serious about you, that this isn't just a one-night stand. Then he seemed to accept it, he knows that I am not a player and I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. I think he is mostly worried about you. He is very protective of you even if you didn't notice. I have no idea what happened in your past, I can only guess that it's something similar to what Johnny went through but you make him uneasy. He doesn't know yet how to approach you about it and I think you remind him of his past as well. He doesn't talk about it; he keeps that part of his life buried but sometimes it doesn't work. He just wants to make sure that you are okay and that you were able surpass the trauma. I don't want to pressure you or anything, I just want you to know that you can talk to me about it when you are ready and this is true to Johnny as well. We are here for you and we would never do anything to hurt you. He feels really bad for scaring you, you know?
- Thank you, Lewis. I trust you both and I feel comfortable around you. I don't want to talk about the past, I just want to move on with my life, although there is one thing that you should know about. When I am feeling overwhelmed, I run, it makes me calm down. If this happens, just let me clear my head alone and don't worry. I promise I won't run away.
- Okay, beautiful. Just remember that I will be always here for you. – he says.
I smile at him and lean closer to kiss him. It is a sweet and slow kiss, not as rushed and passionate as last night but it awakens the butterflies in my stomach. This man has a hold of me and I can only hope that he will not break my heart and destroy me completely because I have fallen for him, hard.
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Fanfiction- You are a silver star now. - says Toto. - A what? - You lived your life alone, surrounded by envious yellow stars who made your life miserable for being different. But being different doesn't mean that you didn't shine as bright. On the contrary...
