Life gets better (or does it?)

My Life

I always get the feeling that I don't belong I just don't realize it. I feel like an alien, like the people around me are "normal" and I get that feeling that you just can't shake. In my world if you don't know where you stand in life it's impossible to survive. It's like a never-ending maze and there is only one way out from start to finish. For me the maze is high school, I would always get bullied. It was like people just don't know that words can hurt even if you think it is okay to say them, it's not ok. But who would care what I thought I'm just the outcast.

I always knew there was something wrong with me, I just couldn't put my finger on it. What is the reason that they hate me? Is it because of my appearance? If that's the case, I can change it. I feel like I'm the baby elephant and they are the tigers waiting for the right moment to attack.

My mornings are like usual. I wake up, get dressed, and go to the bus stop, but this is the tricky part, finding a seat. Every morning I have this problem I would always be told Oh, I was saving this seat for my friend. I wouldn't believe that for a second but that's how my mornings go. Now where was I anyway? Oh, after the bus driver got me a seat I would usually sit in silence and think about who knows what. My thinking would always be interrupted by the "popular" kids who I may add are loud and obnoxious. I somehow make it through the bus ride without trouble, but that's just luck. Most of the time I would be called names and have candy wrappers or anything thrown at me. My nightmare starts now.

Now that we're at school it gets worse, right when I get to the third step on the bus I suddenly get pushed face down and I feel the blood dripping down my forehead I lay there for a second on the cold, hard concrete. I eventually get up from where I was lying, trying to steady myself. I felt so dizzy I barely made it to the nurse before I passed out.