The Runaway

Like it or not

Today I'm allowed to go home and I'm so happy about it because I've already been in the hospital for a week and I'm sick of it the food tastes disgusting here

"Rosie you ready" Zac says walking into my hospital room as I'm putting the last things in my little bag

"Yup" I say handing him my bag and picking up William, we all walk out of the hospital and out to the car I put William in the back seat and buckle him up and jump into the passengers seat and we head home

Once we get home I grab the keys off Zac and go to unlock the front door and walk inside I place William down in his play pen and go upstairs to have a shower I jump in and shampoo and condition my hair once I'm done washing it all out I get my brush and start brushing my hair with the water running down my back it feels so refreshing I run my fingers through my hair and pull them out to find there big chunks of hair in my hand I rub my thumb over it feeling the soft texture

I jump out of the shower and dry my self off putting on my black tights with my white off the shoulder top I brush my hair again and leave it to dry so I get my natural curly waves I then add a beanie so you can't see the little bald spots forming

It's sad to think that in a couple months I'm not gonna be able to do this with my hair and whether I like it or not I'm not gonna have hair for much longer which sucks but it's just something that has to happen so I can get over my cancer and it's like the nurse said a side affect of taking the cemo treatment

I lay down on my bed just looking up at the ceiling until I hear my door burst open and lola come running in "Rosie I didn't know you were coming home today you should of told me and I would of taken the day off work" she says pulling me into a bear crushing hug

One thing I like about lola is she doesn't treat me like I'm sick she treats me the same as I was when I didn't have cancer she doesn't look at me like I'm fragile and could brake any minute, and I love her for it

"So how are you?" She asks rolling over top of me and lying down beside me on her side so she's facing me

"I'm fine don't worry about me, how are you?" I ask her giving her a big smile

"Stressed I'm trying to fit in as many hours as I can before I can't work anymore oh and while you were in the hospital I told Liam that I was pregnant and he was shocked at first but he said he's on board 100% and I'm getting really big " she says smiling like an idiot, she currently 3 months along

"I'm so happy for you lola" I say giving her a massive grin

But in the back of my mind I couldn't stop thinking about me losing my hair and that the fact that in real life it's not always a happy ever after that every body wishes for, the fact is that this is my reality

And reality sucks