Watt-What?

Chapter 5

A/N SO I HAVENT WRITTEN IN LIKE 2 MONTHS SO I DECIDED IT WAS TIME...

~**<3**~

so i hav decided that imma big gurl and i can deal with this... i think things with me and Drake will be fine and go back to normal. so to get my mind off things i am going to hang with Josh. Its Sunday night so we are probably just going to see a movie. 

It’s a holiday tomorrow so we can stay out late. I’m kind of excited but then again I’m so mentally exhausted that I don’t know if I will just be really boring for Josh, or pass out.

I get a text that says hey, I’m outside… u ready? I quickly grabbed my bag and ran out the door. I saw him and it seemed like nothing happened with Drake, nothing was upsetting me, everything was perfect… with him next to me. I grew a big smile and ran into his arms...

“Hey! (Oof) someone’s happy to see me…” he said playfully

“Haha, I guess I just… missed you”

“We saw each other 2 days ago…”

“2 days too long”

I looked up into his eyes and kissed him. And this HAD to be the best kiss we have ever had.

“Woah…” he said when we finally separated

“Haha, let’s go”

We hoped in his truck and drove off, and for the first time in a long time (meaning 1 day), I was happy.

~**<3**~

“But Lindsey… I can’t live without you…”

“Oh Brad, I love you so much, but I must go.”

“I understand, go live your life. I’m sure it will be great”

As the cheesy dialogue went on, I just stared at how amazing Josh was. Not in the creepy stalker stare, but the admiring one. He looked down at me and smiled, put his arm around my shoulder and squeezed me close. I snuggled into him and smiled like a freak. I couldn’t stop smiling! I think I really love this guy…

He leaned his head on mine and gave it a little peck, then whispered ill be right back.

“nooooooo” I said pulling him back down

“ill be right back, I promise” he said laughing

He got up and walked out the door to the theatre. I sat up straight again and looked around, feeling like I was alone and someone was watching me. As I scanned the room I saw… BLAKE? With… ASHLEY!?!?!?!

HOLY SHISKABOB!

I quickly pulled out my phone and texted Blake. What the hell are you doing? Were u not listening when I told u she was pure evil!!!

I waited a few seconds till I got a response

??? Wait r u here? Where r u? Nd she asked me i couldn’t say no.

Yes I’m here! 7th row… nd yes u cud! If u 2 end up going out I will…. ugg!

Once again I waited

Is someone jealous?

HELL NO! I just don’t want to see her drag you down

*waiting

Look… I’m a big boy, I can handle her myself. Now I am being rude, I have to go

UGGG! I flipped my phone shut in anger. I kept flashing my glance over at them to make sure they weren’t making out or anything. Wait am I jealous? No... I can’t be, I have josh and no one compares to him…. No even hot new boy.

Just after that thought Josh came back, and proved my feelings right. My heart jumped again and I pulled him down the second he came into reach. He laughed and assumed the position we were in before he left.

~**<3**~

So I was home again, smiling. All of a sudden I got a huge rush of guilt. How can I be so happy when Drake is in the hospital? I decide it was time to visit him again. I had such a good day that I can remember that for when I see Drake…. Wait, it’s like 12 am. I’ll just go tomorrow. Once again I smiled, remembering Josh and the feeling he gave me.

I got a beep from my computer. I slowly dragged myself over and slumped down into my chair.

*message form Blake, This should be good…

I click the read button and it comes up, the message that changed my mood

Look… I realize that I might have been a lil harsh but u need to realize that it’s my life not yours. I make my own decisions and my own judgments. I don’t want u telling me who I can and cannot like. The truth is, Ashley is really sweet… and we r going out again. I’m sorry if u r upset by that but that’s what’s going to happen. Have a good night.

Boom! Just like that I go from ecstatic to pissed. Great! I fall down on my bed to land on my phone. I pick it up and see 1 new message, from Josh

Had a great time tonight. Love you babe, sleep well, I know I will be dreaming about you.

And just like that I’m back to ecstatic.

~**<3**~

I wake up in the morning smiling, just like I feel asleep.

I decide to go to the hospital now. It’s like 10 so he shud be awake… I quickly pull on some clothes (not that I wasn’t wearing any I was just in PJs) and get down to my car. I pull out of my driveway and pass by the scene of the accident, and my heart ached a little. I tightened my chest and kept going. As I pulled into the hospitals parking lot, I got worried again.

What am I doing?