TW: mental health
"I don't know what's going on with him" Karl tells me over the phone
"Can I talk to him?" I ask him. Dream is still acting weird to both Karl and sapnap. Karl gets up and hand the phone to dream
"Hello?" He asks
"Hey baby!" I get excited
"Kaylen!" He matches my energy
"How are you doing love" I ask "Karl and sapnap said you're either mean or acting weird" I add
"Idk" his tone goes down.
"Please talk to me." I beg
"I actually don't know." I hear a door close so I assume he left the other boys in the hotel room "it's just I haven't been feeling my self lately"
"Well you come home in a few hours so please be nice to them. They love you you know. You know you can always talk to them." I tell him
He says nothing
"Or when you get home talk to me." I offer
"Ok. I think I owe them an apology for now though" he says
"I gotta go now. But I'll see you in a couple hours. I love you and I'd do anything for you! We all would." I tell him
"I love you so much princess. See you later"
We hang up.
"So..?" Quackity asks me as I walk into the bedroom
"He said he doesn't feel like himself." I replied
"It still doesn't give a right to be mean to Karl and sapnap" George states
"You're right but I think he's going through stuff." The boys look at me waiting for me to continue. I sit on the foot of the bed. "It could be his body's way of trying to survive"
"Survive?" Quackity questions me
"Yeah. Like you're so overwhelmed by problems that you're not yourself and you just wanna die but your body is trying to adjust to all of the pain of you act different." I add
"Oh. Wait how do you know that?" Quackity asks me
"Umm. I just do." I shrug.
...
"YOU GUYS SRE HOME!!!!" George runs to dream and hugs him. He smiles and hugs him back tightly. "I love you so much baby" George tells dream.
Karl hugs me. "Is he better?" I ask him. He shakes his head yes. Then sapnap picks me up and spins me around.
"Woah there cowboy" I say as he puts me down. He laughs.
"Walk?" I ask clay. He nods and we leave the house.
"You know you still haven't told me what's wrong" I say trying to get him to open up.
He sighs. "It's just I've been getting a lot of hate lately. And normally I can take it but for some reasons it just hurts a lot more recently. And I take it out on the people who I love the most"
I say quiet.
"And I just hate myself for being here."
"Here?" I question him
"For being alive. I just feel like a burden. Like you guys would be better off without me."
"No matter how you think we feel about you. We love you and we always will. There is nothing that can change that. And think about how many lives you saved by being you're self. Don't let them win."
A/N:
if you're ever feeling $uicidal or depressed talk to someone please! You can always talk to me as well. And trust me I've been there I've tried to km$. I love you guys, if I can give you the world I would. Make sure to eat, drink water, and get enough sleep.
