Broken Hearts {h.s}

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I felt my frame stiffen, waiting for the blow to come. I wasn't scared this time, no I wasn't because to me it was usual now. The hits, the blows, the kisses, the marks, the punches, the kicks, the loving words, everything was usual to me.

Our love was a mystery, one minute we would be kissing each other and the other he'd just hit me but I wouldn't scream or shout because I loved him. I wouldn't defend myself because I loved him. I'd just stay silent, bearing it all because I loved him.

27th April 2014 was the day I met him, exactly a year and 2 months ago. We were both crying, depressed and we were the only ones who could mend each other's heart. We both fixed each other. I completed him and he completed me.

15th May 2014 was the day he asked me to be his girlfriend. I was truly in love with him so I said yes with tears welled up in my eyes. That day was one of the best days of my life, I had never thought the man I fell in love with would ask me to be his girlfriend.

3rd September 2014 was the most dreadful day of my life, it was the day I got my first hit. He was drunk and I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. He doesn't remember this though but I do, yet again I stayed silent and forgave him because I loved him.

Things went on and on, our love grew each day but his hits became more frequent too. I've fallen for him so badly that I don't even know who am I. I know he'd scream at me but at the end of the day I know he'd be mine and I'd be his, no matter what because we were the only ones who could fix each other.

Thou shall not fall

I held my cheek as another blow came towards it. He was furious but its okay since I loved him. I'd bear this pain for him and I. " He fucking killed them, he fucking killed my men" he screamed aggressively. I felt goosebumps rise up my arms and suddenly he kicked me in the stomach

I spluttered out blood, tears coursing down my face but I still managed to smile because I knew he'd calm down after seeing the blood. As I composed my shaky frame, my smile faded because he wasn't calm, he was still furious. I wonder why, every time he'd see my blood he'd calm down but not today. I felt myself frown at the thought. He punched my chest repeatedly and more and more blood oozed out of my mouth yet I stayed silent. He kept on punching me and I tried to think of our happy memories together to distract me from the dreadful situation I am in.

I thought of the time when it was my birthday and he was the only one who wished me, he even bought me flowers the next day and that day was one of the bests. We did everything a romantic couple did. We cuddled, we kissed, we hugged, we made love and there's so many things we did. The list would never end. I thought of the time we went for shopping together for the first time. I still remember his words clearly when I started protesting to let me use my own money. His words were like heaven to me, they meant so much to me and they are fixed right at the bottom of my heart. " You are mine baby girl, and I love spoiling my baby girl so shut up already" He had playfully joked but to me it was my everything. I thought of the time I cried on his shoulder while watching titanic and he kept on snickering at me because he though I looked cute while crying over a stupid movie.I tried to think of everything, our every cherished moment together, our every breath taken together. I tried to think of the time he'd make love to me, when his key would enter my lock.At times he'd go slow, with lots of kisses being given to me but at times he'd be harsh and rough but I'd control my constant begging for him to stop, because I loved him.

Thou shall not die

People may call me a fool, for letting him do what he wanted with me but let's just say love is blind. I've fallen in love with him, way too hard and it will take me a lifetime to stop loving him.

Harry was literally my everything, he was my heart, my soul, my mind, my nutella, my sugar, my love, my life, my everything. As cheesy as it sounds its true. I hate his aggressive side, but I love his sweet side and everybody has faults don't they. Fate bought us together and I am thankful it did.

Thou shall not fear

No matter how hard Harry would hit me, I'd never fear him. I'd only fear his love ending for me but his aggressive side would never scare me. I know I am always safe with him. My body, my mind, my soul everything is safe with him after all I belong to him and don't we all protect the things that belong to us?

My thoughts were interrupted by Harry who was shaking me constantly, tears welled up in his eyes. His constant sorry's and my ragged breathing could be heard only. "S'okay Harry, please don't cry" I whispered as I held his wet cheeks in my hands. How could I not forgive him, he meant everything to me.

Our lips were inching closer and closer, " I truly am sorry baby girl, I always take it out on you and yet you bear it all, you deserve so much better, I am no good for you baby, I am no good for you" he mumbled against my lips. Without a second though, I harshly pressed my lips against him, silently telling him how angry I was with his words. His eyes widened at the sudden move but he cooperated and moved his lips with mine. Our lips moved in perfect sync, like they were made for each other only. Though I pulled back a little too quickly still angry at what he said. Disappointment flooded through his eyes. I got a hold of his hands and kissed his knuckles several times.

" Stop saying I don't deserve you, you are perfect for me, way too perfect, you are perfect for this world, I love you so much, you can't even imagine my love for you" I had tears running down my cheeks after I whispered these words to him.

Without wasting a single moment I attached my lips to his again, and he picked me up bridal style, carrying me to our bed. He softly placed me on the bed and got in with me, hiding his face in the crook of my neck and whispering loving words. I loved him and he loved me, that's what matters. We two had each other at all times. No one could separate us. We were two broken hearts, imperfectly perfect together.

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The end.

I know this is fucked up with way too many mistakes but bear with it please. Anyways thoughts? :)