Taste Your Toxicity (MHA AU) (Temp Hiatus For Editing)

Blues by BlueFlame

TOYA'S POV

"Listen Damia... I really didn't want this to happen tonight, I had a great day today. I was honestly just wanted to play games with Shig and then come home... I was so excited to show you my progress... That I was working on myself, and I really just slipped...that's the first time I've been around those drugs since then. I...I know nothing I say will make you forgive me. But I'm not asking for that Damia..." She turns around to face me. "What are you asking for?" "I....I want your help to beat this. I tried going cold turkey and I slipped up. I need to wene myself off of it. Will you help me moderate myself until I'm off of it... I'm not asking for your forgiveness...I couldn't after what I did. But I want your help..." Blood wells up in my eyes. She looks at me. "Ill sleep on it."

Hawks got into the driver seat, Toya had climbed into the backseat. When they got home, Damia immediately walked inside. I held a hand out as if to grab her but she walked away.

"I...I really hope she will give me a second chance Hawks..." I look at him. "I...I really dont want her to feel that way... I'll be devastated if she hates me. I slipped up Hawks I don't know what to do!!" I drop to my knees as blood dribbles from my face. "I...I need help..." Hawks slowly nods. " We want to help you." "Then why won't she talk to me Keigo?!? " I cry out and I now down to the floor, I'm in fetal position but kneeling against the cold floor.

A few days pass, I haven't left my room in two days besides grabbing a food tray that hawks so graciously drops off for me at lunch time, and submitting a emergency LOA {Leave Of Absence} through my boss at the Swat office. Who luckily approved it due to the rank I had got positioned at. I haven't spoken to either one of them, I've been so depressed I can barley leave my bed. I just want Damia to talk to me, I did something good...I did it for her, and myself. I went to a clinic and got prescription meds to help me ween myself off, while limiting the I need to use until I'm off it for good... But I just can't get myself to go to see her. I know she's disappointed in me.

I sigh and texted Enji, I left him on read yesterday.

Toya: 'Hey dad, I'm sorry I didn't text you back yesterday. I'm sick, my boss gave me a bit to get better since I was having trouble balancing.'

Enji responded immediately.
'Are you alright? Did you eat something? Need me to get anything for you?'

I laugh slightly at the screen. 'If you wanted to drop off my gear, I can meet you at that street?'

Enji sends a thumbs up emoji. 'I can do that, how about we go get Breakfast after? If you still don't feel good then maybe coffee?'

'I think your getting attached to me, if I had anything to say about it. Sure, coffee sounds Great actually... I need someone to talk to about some...stuff I'm struggling with.'

'Is there anything you need to tell me? Is it about Swat?'

'No, it's not about Swat.. I actually.. it's actually something worse than that, something that I really have to stop.'

'We can talk about it when I see you, see me at 8?'

I snicker. '7?, My roommates wake up around 8-8:30. I'd rather not explain where I'm going right now... I got the Blues.'

Enji responded as I set my phone on my chest, I told the screen up again. 'It's ok son, I'll help you through whatever it is. 7 is perfectly fine. See you then.'

I typed out 'I lied to a lot of people yesterday. I'll see you at 7.' I deleted the first part.

'I'll see you at 7.'

I soon fell asleep and was awoke by the alarm, glancing at the clock. {6:30} I let out a deep breath as I slowly swing my legs over the edge and get dressed.