"Goodbye". you never want to hear those words. Words that people hate. Words that make you sick to your stomach. Words that don't give you butterflies. They are words. Tearful words. Hurtful words. Overthinking words. Sad words. Anger words. Why, words. The truth is we hate saying goodbye, hearing the word "goodbye" by itself is pointless. It makes you hate yourself. It makes you sick to you stomach, the point where you want to cry but don't know why. I want to say "goodbye" but I can't. I don't know why I can't say goodbye, but I just can't. Maybe I still see potential in that person. Maybe I still like that person. Maybe that person seen the inner child in me that nobody else seen. Maybe our inner child seen each other and felt cherished. Or maybe you just want a person to make you laugh or smile. Whatever it is, is stoping you from saying goodbye. Why can't I just type "goodbye ..... Our friendship has come to an end. You made me realize that I was trying to hold a friendship that wasn't there. Thank you for everything. Thank you for healing my inner child, making her realize that she wasn't the only weird little girl that loved Star Wars, English and History. Thank you for allowing her to be weird and not judge her. Thank you for being the best person. Thank you for making me write again. Thank you for everything! You are probably wondering why I am sending this message. The truth is I still have feelings for you. I know I told you I would stop. But I can't. I can't stop having feelings for you. Your inner child is my inner child. You are the kindest person I have ever met. You may not see it but you are. You may be hiding everything behind that beautiful smile of yours, I know you are not into God anymore. I don't know what stopped you from loving God. Maybe family member? Church hurt?Whatever it is just know the Lord chose you for a reason. I may not know why, but He does. The only person that knows is you because you hide everything behind that beautiful smile of yours. It's time to move on, wish you the best in life. Wish you the best, again thank you for everything. I can't force love, friendships or relationships, goodbye ......" Why can't I just type that? Why can't I send that simple paragraph? Why can't I tell the truth? Why can't I just say a simple goodbye? Just why.
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PoetryHi my name is lai. I've been writing since age 3. I've been into writing ever since I was a kid. I used to write and read everywhere I would go. Until i fell out of love. My whole entire life I was told "you suck at writing" I guess you can say peop...
