kazuscara Angst♡.

Midsection.

Authors warning
This is where the kidnapping comes in! Lots of angst and cursing!!!!
(Xiao's karmic debt in this universe is basically a really rare type of anxiety that can/is self destructing for the body)

Sorry (⁠~⁠￣⁠³⁠￣⁠)⁠~
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Where is he.
"It's six in the morning and still no signs of Scara I'm so fucking scared right now I don't know what to do I feel like he's just doing this to fuck with me"

I woke up at 6am expecting to see my boyfriend cuddled up beside me. There was nothing there though. When I woke up and felt he wasn't there I immediately called Xiao, He's good at calming me.

"Just relax kazuha. He probably left somewhere maybe check in with the other boys and if he isn't there then we wait a couple hours, if he still doesn't return then we'll file a missing persons report."

My heart dropped at the words "missing person" that's what Tomo was pronounced whenever he died.

Just

missing.

"I don't want to file a missing persons report I want him to come back."

"I'm sorry but that's just the worst case scenario.. do you want me to call the boys and ask or do you want me too..?"

"Please call."

"I will don't worry."

"It will be okay I promise."

Those words sound foreign but somehow familiar. I don't understand. I don't fucking get it. why do these things happen to me. I can't loose anybody else for archons sake, if I loose someone else I'm bound to loose myself as well. I hated waiting for Xiao to call me back. It was only a couple minutes, but it felt like centuries. Fuck fuck fuck fuck I'm loosing my mind. I can't keep waiting like this I need to calm down.
I don't think I've ever taken my anxiety medication so fast in my whole life. I don't remember how many I took, I think I may have took to many but I didn't care. I couldn't see because my eyes were blurry from crying, all I remember is running up the hallway to my bathroom and sitting in the freezing cold shower for what seemed like days.

While I was in the shower Xiao called me back. I leaned back so my head wasn't in the shower and picked up the phone. I've never seen my hands this Shakey before...

"H-hello."

"Are you showering?"

"Yeah."
"Please god tell me you got s-something useful."

"Well first I'd recommend turning on some warmer water. you sound really really cold, I don't want you sick."

He's like my mom...it's comforting.

"Yeah okay, it feels much better."

"Okay, this is what I do whenever I have a meltdown with my karmic debt."

He's preparing me for bad news.

"Breathe in and out until your calm enough for me to tell you everything"

" Think about something pleasant and just listen to my voice. Know that I'm here for you. "

I did as he said.
I felt my medication kicking in and It calmed me down a lot. I felt much better.

"Are you ready? It's kind of bad."

I felt it in my throat.
I wanted to cave and cry until I couldn't breathe. I didn't.

"Okay."

"So, I called everyone and he wasn't at anybody's house until I called heizou"

Oh Gods.

"Heizou said that scara's been being stalked by an old military friend. Heizou got a text from him that said something along the lines of "I'm telling you this because your the first person in my contacts. I'm being kidnapped I don't know where I'll be at but his name is dottore" "

"Oh my god."

" He also said "he's been stalking me for the past three months looking for me so that he can turn me in to finish my six years in that prison camp of a military unit. Their original plan was to make me finish and then take my body parts, dottore isn't going to let me finish. He's going to kill me. Find me quick" "

"Just reading from the text heizou sent me."

"..."

"I'm so sorry."

"I'm going to the police."

"Okay call me if you need anything at all"

"Thank you so much Xiao"

I can't breathe.

I can't talk.

I can't cry.

I can't move.

Not again.

Please not again.