SEVEN YEARS(Taekook)

Followed His Heart to Fall in Love with Another Man

By the time taehyung was able to say 'mama', his mother went back to France.

This french woman couldn't stand her husband's, she didn't even want a son.

From childhood to adulthood, taehyung had always been outstanding.

Not the usual 'outstanding, but shocking-beyond- his-age 'outstanding'.

He always took first place in the exams. He satisfied all of his father's requirements until he finally surpassed his father, replacing him.

Extreme self-discipline made his life feel like a pool of stagnant water.

The only accident (in his life) was jungkook.

Jungkook rushed in inexplicably. Just like a golden knife, he tore open his life and brought him infinite radiance.

Taehyung had never seen such a dazzling person, nor had he seen such an unrestrained man.

They were a complete opposite; like light and darkness, black and white.

Taehyung liked jungkook, he liked everything about him.

Because of these, he yearned for something he couldn't have.
When jungkook confessed to him...

For the first time in his life, taehyung experienced the feeling called joy.

After marriage, taehyung seemed to be dreaming every day.

When he woke up in the morning, jungkook would kiss him.

Before going out, jungkook would kiss him.

At noon, jungkook would also ask him to have lunch with him.

Even when he was working in the afternoon, jungkook would leave early to accompany him.

He never thought that anyone could live as jungkook did; doing things his heart desired, doing things without cares or worries, doing things for granted.

Jungkook's love was like a blazing sun, wrapping taehyung and bringing him an unimaginable warmth.

Taehyung was used to being alone. Suddenly being together, there that needed adjustments.

He was not used to talking during meals, but he would try to chat with jungkook. Unfortunately, he could only talk about dry and boring works.

He wasn't used to being intimate in front of people, but inside the car, he would let jungkook kiss him when the driver couldn't see.

He wasn't used to taking a bath with other people, but after jungkook insisted on it twice, taehyung found someone to change (their bathtub with) a large square bathtub, so the two of them wouldn't need to squeeze in.

Taehyung also didn't like jungkook fooling around in the office, but after jungkook did it twice, he replaced the single bed in the lounge with a double bed.

Sometimes taehyung felt that jungkook was too willful.

But soon enough he couldn't help but smile-

Taehyung yearned for his willfulness, and if he could, he hoped jungkook would be able to do as he pleased for the rest of his life.

It was just that he didn't think because jungkook did

whatever he pleased, he would no longer want him.

Taehyung didn't know what had happened or why.

They had been together for seven years. They had never quarreled, never been in a disagreement, and had never separated.

Taehyung was used to it.

He was used to the kiss in the morning, used to the kiss before going out, and used to seeing him at noon and in the afternoon.

But all of a sudden, they were all gone.

He didn't know which day, but jungkook changed.

Taehyung perceived jungkook's estrangement, sensed his gaze, and felt his scrutiny.

Taehyung felt like there was a thorn in his back, and his nerves were very tense.

He hadn't felt like this for a long time. Taehyung hadn't felt this way ever since he met jungkook and they got married.

It was as if someone was staring at him, watching him, and accusing him from afar.

Taehyung hated this feeling. He wanted to talk to jungkook.

He went home early and waited at home, forcing himself to do nothing but wait for jungkook to come back.

But, as time passed, jungkook came home later and later.

What should I do?

Immense fear took over taehyung's heart and dragged him into the pitch-black abyss.

Until that day, he saw jungkook together with a young boy.

At this moment, taehyung suddenly understood.

Jungkook hadn't changed, he was still the same, he was still following what his heart desired

Jungkook followed his heart to not love him anymore, and he followed his heart to fall in love with another man.

When jungkook asked him to divorce...

Taehyung was not surprised. He already knew for a long time that this was bound to happen.

Jungkook took a long time to open his mouth, and he already looked very reluctant.

Taehyung didn't want to force him.

He, after all, was also a man, there was no need to be a nuisance to jungkook.

Taehyung left, walking in a world filled with ice and snow, walking while recalling the seven years' worth of memories.

And then...

He broke down.

He couldn't walk or even move his legs.

The recollection of two people walking hand-in- hand became the last straw that crushed him.

Why?

Why?

Why?

Why is it like this?

If you couldn't be faithful until the end, why did you promise for the rest of our lives...

Taehyung had believed it, nevertheless, jungkook still changed in the end.

Taehyung felt the freezing cold, as if he had returned to that snowy night, watching his mother leave and could only call 'mama' helplessly.

At that time, taehyung understood that his plea could never be heard.

No matter how much you yelled at her, no matter how you called her, it was useless.

He was an adult, he was no longer a child like that time. He wouldn't be so helpless to beg for the warmth that didn't belong to him.

But...

He wasn't reconciled.

Even if he knew that it would be useless, even if he knew that it would make him badly battered, even if he knew that it would make him lose his final dignity...

When taehyung saw jungkook, he still broke through the shackles in his heart and asked him, "...Why don't you want me?"

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