Yet Again

Mistakes

Machigai,

"It's me...just me...no one but me"; i used to say to my self.

Over and over again, i would remind myself that i was the only one who could save me.

When life gave me nothing but a reason to question it. All i could do was find reasons to not pay attention to my flaws cuz i saw everyone else's as worse than mine

I painted the world in a dim light that i refuse the see the world for what it truly was....a mystery..

A mystery i myself couldn't fathom. I used reality as an escape route.

Refusing to see the hope in life except the hope i had locked far a way in my heart. I always listened to my heart not my head.

I thought i wasn't normal. I thought i was special. Then i realized I'm not so different from others if i claim to be self righteous.

Opening my eyes to this became the greatest realization for me.

"Give yourself time" "you only live once" they said to me .

But i couldn't help but notice all that was happening around me. It hurt me....real bad it did

I tried to make sense of everything i came across, my whole world was crumbling at my feet.

I tried to win the war i set my self up to, keeping everyone else in the dark.

I came to a realization that life waits for no one to catch up and understand it, it moved as fast as the waters of the sea.

Each time i move forward I'm left in awe of the wonders of this world.

A life full of mystery, would drive you crazy if you tried to make sense of it.