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The betrayal (31)

"I am afraid
I will love you forever and we will never be in the same room again."- Clementine Von Radics,

The next day Lana finally shows up.

I'm sitting on the couch watching the Tv but it's not on so I guess staring at it.

She walks through the door with a big smile on her face.

She's smiling with him, knowing me and him ended things when she should be here with me.

Comforting me like a true cousin.

"Hey Stella, i didn't think you'd be out" she says, her smile fading a little bit.

I don't look at her nor say anything, the betrayal is too much for me.

She gets closer to me, once she's next to me, she sits down.

"How are you doing today?" She asks.

"As if you care" i say to her, she looks taken aback by my attitude.

"Of course I care" she says defensively.

"No, no you don't" i say back, and then i take out the pictures from under the blanket.

I shove it in her face "this says otherwise" i say.

She grabs the pictures and looks up at me.

"I. Hate. You" i say slowly, "I hate you so much"

"I'm so sorry ella" she says opening and closing her mouth trying to form words.

"When did it start?" I ask her, the dying question that's been on my mind.

She looks down "we first kissed when you were in the hospital" she says shamefully.

My heart drops, "what the fuck? How could you?!"

"I'm sorry, it just happened. We we're both so worried about you! And we were there, both vulnerable and scared" she says defending herself.

"And I looked into his eyes, and i noticed I had never seen how pretty his eyes were and before I knew it we were both leaning in" she says softly.

"We both knew it was wrong but we couldn't stop, we wanted too but it just never happened" she says adding more to the fucking fire.

She sighs "please say something" she begs.

"I hate you Lana, I hate you so much! Not only are you my cousin but you were also my best friend." I say, i try my best not to cry in front of her.

"But fucking fuck you, and fuck him too. You guys can go be together since you want to so badly" i say about to leave but stop when I get beside her.

"The same way you got him, is the same way you'll lose him.
So good-luck" i say and leave.

"He loves me" she says as I walk away, "he told me he loves me, he was never sure about you" she says.

"I don't care! Because i deserve someone better than him, someone who won't get with my own cousin, but you guys? You guys deserve each other"

"And I wouldn't take that as a compliment" i walk away done with this whole situation.

As Mr. James would put it, this is just another bump in the road and I have to be okay with that.

I can't help but cry, there's nothing bad with crying though.

I let oceans of tears spill out.

There's a knock on my door, i was about to tell them go away but it's my mom.

"Sweetie stell" she says, i tell her to come in.

"What's wrong?" She asked concerned.

"Mom, Mason and Lana kissed when I was in the hospital" i say sobbing.

"What?! Your cousin?" She asks confused.

I nod, "yes mom"

She comes to my bed and hugs me while I cry.

"Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry" she whispers

I just cry and cry.

"It hurts so much" i say to her, she nods.

"I know, I know sweetie. What can I do to make you feel better?" She asks.

"Please let me go to aunt jules for senior year?!" I ask more like beg.

She looks hesitant, "I'll call her and ask" she says after a minute.

"Can you please call her right now?" I ask, she nods.

My aunt jules lives out in New York, she's invited me over her place for a few times.

She's always telling me I can go out there and stay there for as long as I want.

My mom comes into my room again.

"She said you can stay there" my mom says, I feel this weight off my shoulders.

"But you have to continue going to therapy there too" she says.

I nod frantically "yes! Okay that's fine. Omg thank you! Thank you so much mom"

"When do I leave?" I ask excited.

"You'll leave in June after school is over" she says.

I nod and hug her tightly, she does too.

"Thank you mom" I whisper to her.

I want to move away, far away from here. From everyone.

I'll miss my girls but I can't stay here when Lana and Mason are together.

New York here i come I guess!