The Things I Couldn't Say

Dear Reader

For a long time I had this need

This feeling to express my self in the

way I please.

To show the real me.

But things were holding me back.

The effects and reactions I'd get when

people heard me.

For just last night I discovered the

power that lay behind words.

The words I wanted to utter held power

beyond meaning.

Words with anger, love, and sorrow

From the pool of emotions deep within me.

Words that stung when they reach the tip of my tongue

Words that hurt and belittled every action I thought as 'fun'.

Words that soothed every single wound

Words that bleed and hurt like a needle about to plunge into my heart.

And words that simply did no harm at all

But entice the hatred others felt for me.

Because these words were different.

They lived deep inside me.

In the twisted sea of thoughts and dreams,

Beneath the depths of the words 'express'

Each and every time they came to mind

I felt like a balloon had popped deep inside

Because just like that, my body became ALIVE

The words flowed freely.

Hateful words, resentful words,

important words, and just plain stupid words

Words short and long, like 'the' and 'honey'

And just like that, everything changed for me.

My world turned upside down as I began

Seek refuge in the only things that never made me frown.

My words.

As you read along the pages of this story,

remember that each one came from my heart.

Let's start an endless journey and pray

For each of these letters holds

The Things I couldn't ever say.