The scratching

Chapter 1

Authors note rq:

Hey lovelies,
Please remember to read the tags!

- Jay

*Tenya Iida has created this Groupchat*

*Tenya Iida has added Mina Ashido,Hanta Sero,Kyoka Jiro + 16 others*

*Tenya Iida has given Admin rights to Momo Yaoyorozu*

Tenya Iida
Hello Guys! I have created this Chat for fun purposes! Feel free to chat!

Hanta Sero
WE HAVE A GROUPCHAT LETS GOOOOOO!!

Mina Ashido
fckn finally

Momo Yaoyorozu
What gave you the Idea to create this chat @Tenya Iida? ^^

Tenya Iida
Midoriya has given me the idea!

Momo Yaoyorozu
How come @Izuku Midoriya?

Izuku Midoriya
Dunno I was just bored ^~^

Mina Ashido
TYSM MIDOBAE <3

Izuku Midoriya
Yw :–)

The truth is,Midoriya couldn't stand the feeling of the quiet. It reminded him too much of his past when no one had spoken to him as punishment. It made his skin itchy.Every time it was too quiet he wanted to scratch at his skin till he was bleeding; or better when he had no skin at that place. He knew that the chat wouldn't be quiet even at night time. That's why he suggested it to Iida. Sometimes he was grateful for his noisy friends. Just sometimes though.

Izuku looked down at his phone seeing the 56+ messages. He knew he wouldn't read the chat if it wasn't important. This time it was important. Izuku laid down on his bed reading and responding to all the messages as he desperately tried not to think about exactly 5 years ago. The day his mother took her own live. The day he found her hanging from the bathroom ceiling. The day he found the letter. The day he wanted to die.

"My dearest Izuku,

I deeply apologise for not being a better mother. I'm sorry for not being able to protect you from your father. And I'm sorry for making your life so miserable. I shouldn't have let you go with him that day.

Maybe, just maybe, if I was a better mom things wouldn't be like this.

Izuku, you were the only reason I stayed alive. I could not bear seeing you so broken after he touched you. Moreover I could not stand to hear your cry's every night. It officially broke me.

Do not blame yourself Izuku. You were the son I always dreamed of. You were the sunshine in my life. Please understand that this is my only way out of this hell. Keep fighting for me. You are the strongest person I have ever met. I'm proud to say that you are my son. You can be a hero.

I'm sorry, I love you Baby"

-Your Mommy

There it was again. That stupid itchy feeling he couldn't get rid off. He wasn't supposed to scratch. He tried to fight against it so many times but he knew that if he wouldn't scratch now, he would do so much worse things. So he did it. He scratched at his arm till it was bleeding. He hated what he did but god did he love the feeling of the sting. Every sting, every drop of blood and especially the feeling of being alive. He felt so numb every minute and hour of the day but not when he scratched. He knew it wasn't healthy; but hell nothing he did at this point was considered healthy.