I Wanna Try

Two days ago.

I heard my phone ringing.

'Who the fuck is calling me at 2am? If it's George Imma beat the shit out of him and kill him with a fucking pillow.' I furiously thought.

But when I saw the contact name I froze, it wasn't George but Karl.

"Hello ?" I said with a raspy voice.
"Hi Sap ! Did I wake you up?"
"Not at all."
"Very convincing kitten." Karl giggles silently. "Seriously, do you want me to hang up?"

I blush at the pet name.

Even if it's not the first time that Karl calls me by those names, I still didn't get used to them.

"Sapnap?"
"Yeah sorry I zoned out for a second. But no, don't hang up."
"No problem kitten, anyways, you know it's my birthday soon."
"Mhmh ?"
"And I want..."
"You want ?"
"I wanna celebrate it with you."

'Together? Alone? Oh god' I thought.

"Well, I'll be here." I tried to say without sounding to excited.
"YEAH !!"
"Ow, Karl please don't scream I just woke up."
"Oh yeah, true I'm sorry."
"It's okay darling."

Darling. Good one Sapnap.

"Darling ?"
"Yeah no sorry."
"No, I like that actually."
"O-Okay..."

I caught myself blushing, again.

"Oh and before hanging up, bring Dream and George."
"Okay no problem."
"Good night Sap."
"Good night Karl."

Then Karl hanged up, I was a bit disappointed that I won't be alone with Karl, but at least I got to see to him.

-

It is Karl's birthday and we are on the road to his house. Dream is driving, George is in the passenger seat and I in the backseat, watching the road and thinking... About Karl obviously. I am asking himself tons of questions.

"Sapnap ?"
"What ?"
"It's the third time I'm calling you," says Dream, "are you okay ?"
"Yes, I am."
"You sure? I don't think so."
"He's in loooooove."
"George, if you don't want me to say what is going on between Dream and you then shut the fuck up."
"You're not funny PLUS you promised that you weren't gonna say anything about it you stupid little bastard."

He tries to hit me like a little kid.

"George, stop this is serious."
"Okay. Fine. "

He crosses his arms, pouting.

"Thank you Dream."
"No problem."
"Okay but seriously, are you going to say what's happening in your head mister Sapnap ?" George asks.
"I don't know, I don't want to bother you guys."
"You're not bothering us bro, if you need to talk or just want comfort we're here you know."

Dream gently says, looking at me through the rear-view mirror. I smile.

"I don't know, I'm pretty lost with my sexuality actually, I know that I love women but I'm not sure if I love men. And with Karl, I don't know either, what I am supposed to feel, do I like him as a friend? A best friend? As a love?? I might be in love with him but it's confusing me."
"Mmh, I see, from my perspective, I didn't rush myself and took time to fully understand things one by one, just take your time, only you can clearly understand yourself." Calmly explain Dream, eyes on the road.
"Yeah okay, I see."
"Plus we're gonna see him! Maybe it could help too!" Exclaims George.
"Thanks guys."
"No problem Sap." Says George with a big smile.