Katya Zamo/ Brian McCook/Trixya imagines

scars

TW: suicide and cutting. Please don't read if that triggers you.
I hope I don't offend or hurt anyone.

description: Brian finds you crying. fem!reader

"Hi-eee," Brian says happily skipping into your share room.

He and Trixie had just finished recording The Bald and The Beautiful and he couldn't wait to tell what Trixie had told him.

" Guess what Brian told me, Mary! I swear it's the funniest thing I've heard all year!"

When the only response he got was a soft sniffle he quickly rushed to you.

Kneeling in front of you Brian took your face into his hands so he could see your face.

" Mama, what's going on? Are you okay? Talk to me."

His mood switched so fast you probably would have laughed under different circumstances.

Instead, all that came out was a cry.

" I feel so ugly. Why won't they go away? Every time I see them they remind me how stupid I am."

You said moving from his grasp to cover up your arms. You've always been insecure about your cuts but recently it had gotten worse.

" Hey, look at me. Don't say that, honey. Your scars show anything but stupidity okay? They show the courage and bravery you have."

" How?" You say as Brian wipes your tears.

" I'm getting to that, Brenda"

Hoping to get at least a smile out of you. It works.

Snorting softly at his own joke Brian continues.

" Being able to push every day when your own mind is working against you shows how amazingly brave you are. Fuck y/n, you push me every to stay sober. I fucking look up to you"

Brian hopes you see the truth in his eyes and believe him. Seeing you like this crushes him.

He understands what it feels like. The self-hate clouds your brain and controls your actions. He wishes he could take that pain from you.

"Thank you, bub"

You say trying to pull him closer needing the physical comfort as much as the verbal. The position makes it hard.

Seeing this Brian gets up and lays on the bed. Pulling you so you're half on top of him.

" Always, mama. I hope you know you're absolutely beautiful in every way. Scars and all, hon. Love you so much"

Brian says before lifting your arm to his lips and softly kissing your scars.

" I love you too, Bubba. It might take some time but I think I need some professional help but hopefully one day I'll be able to truly see myself the way you see me"

You whisper as you lean in to softly kiss his lips.

While nuzzling your face in his neck you hear a soft -

"And I'll be here the whole way"

You gently squeeze his waist smiling as he kisses your head.

Brian's story would have to wait.

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Hi, this might be a little cringe but i hope you liked it.

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You're loved and Beautiful Always.