I Need To Feel Your Warmth

"This idea was stupid."
Rain said as he picked a cream coloured package from the bed where he had thrown it not even a minute ago.

Just to then throw it on the bed again.

He's been going on like this for quite some time now.

With a frustrated sigh he threw himself, face first, onto the bed.

"This is so stupid." He murmured against the sheets, kicking with his legs like a child.

All the confidence he felt when he first got this idea was slowly vanishing with every passing minute.

Rolling onto his back he stared at the ceiling for a moment, his brain working 100 miles per hour trying to decide the best course of action.

To open a package and follow on with his crazy idea or to just throw the whole damn thing into the trash and burn it so there is no evidence of his stupidity left.
The more he thought about it all the less sure he was in himself.

Just because he loved seeing P'Phayu dress up in varying costumes didn't mean Phayu would love it if it was him in a costume instead.

Should he just give up going forward with this?

That way he could easily avoid the disappointment that would surely come once P'Phayu finds this whole idea ridiculous.

Rain groaned in frustration, rolling on the bed this way and that, messing up the sheets completely in the process of making himself disappear in them from the embarrassment of just thinking about it. Sometimes he really hated his brain.

But Rain was not a quitter, and so, after 1 more hour of arguing with himself like some lunatic, he finally found the courage to open the package.

With shaking fingers he got the contents out and laid them down on the messy bed.

Dark blue skirt with a matching hat, a white blouse and a red scarf were staring back at him.

He gingerly touched the skirt and lifted it up. Then proceeded to pick the rest of the items and hurried into the bathroom before he could change his mind.

…………………………………………………

Rain looked at himself in the mirror. The person staring back was familiar yet not.

"Will Phi like it?" He voiced his concern into an empty room.

Securing the hat over his hair so it won't fall off he patted his hair one last time.

His hands were shaking, his whole body was shaking for that matter and he felt lightheaded.

He felt like he might pass out. Both from nerves and the fact he barely slept these past few days as he was studying hard for the final exams.

He wanted to do a good job, to show P'Phayu that he can do it. So he had stayed up late at night studying hard until he would fall asleep by his little table in his room and only when his mom would wake him up would he go lay in his bed. All that so when the final exam would finally be over he would surprise P’Phayu to show him how good of a boy he was.

So he prepared all this. Secretly ordering a flight attendant costume and hoping to god that he won’t end up make the biggest fool of himself.

"Did I over kill it? '' Rain thought as he took a few steps back to get a better view of himself in the mirror.

The skirt with the shirt tucked in hugged his waist nicely making it look even more slimmer than usual.
His hips and legs looked nice as well.

He unbuttoned two buttons on the shirt and turned the little red scarf more to the left side of his neck so it won’t be in a way of his chest that was now a little bit more on display.