𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐖𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒? ᵐᵃᵗᵗ ˢᵗᵘʳⁿⁱᵒˡᵒ

𝟎𝟎𝟏. ( a mistake )

┊ ˚➶ ｡˚ 🥝 CHAPTER ONE !
. . . a mistake
( real life )

I'VE ALWAYS HAD A THING FOR elijah ian, the boy that every girl dreamed of kissing. i was one of those girls. matt knew that too, so i don't know why he did what he did in the end if he knew.

one morning, i woke up earlier than usual. i slipped my slippers on and scurried down the steps. i was tired beyond measure, my eye's heavy and my mind not having processed that i was awake just yet.

i opened my phone to a notification from matt. weird, he never texts me this early in the morning. the notification reads, meet me at the park in ten. of course with auto-caps, no matter how many times i tell him to turn it off, he refuses to.

then i jump up and race back up the stairs, slipping and sliding as my slippers pounded on the hardwood floor. my brother must already be at work and my mom's in the back gardening like she does all the time in her free time.

i grabbed my black new york sweatpants and a cropped white tank top. i have no idea what to do with my hair so i just leave it down, throwing on a knit hat considering it might be a little chilly and i'm not itching for my head to freeze.

i hurriedly grabbed my black platform converse and zipped through the front door. i text matt back and tell him i'm on my way. he replies with a thumbs up and i close out of my phone. i stuff it into my sweatpant's pocket, my pace quickening down the street as i realize i'm running short on time.

as i near closer to the park, i see matt's back turned on me so i figure this is a perfect way to scare him. i still don't forgive him after he ate my last slice of pizza in the fridge a few nights ago.

i grab his shoulders and he jumps, his eyes wide as he turns to look at me. i'm laughing like a maniac even if it isn't funny at all.

"your face," i laugh, "priceless." i slap my knee for dramatics and matt rolls his eyes at me. "you act like such a kid sometimes." i notice how nervous he looks, so i raise my eyebrows in a way that i ask, are you okay? he huffs out a deep sigh and grabs my hand. cold shivers are sent down my spine as i wonder why he's grabbing my hand.

"your hand's cold." matt says, inspecting my hand further. i feel the blush creeping on my face and want him to let go of my hand.

"well, it is kind of cold." i say, matt resting his eyes on mine.

"dev." he says, trying to catch my attention and brings my face into his hands. i want to slap his hand away but i don't, i want to run away but i don't. this feels so wrong it's almost like it's right.

"look at me." he says, i look at him and he's looking at me. what the fuck is happening? i don't ever get the chance to ask the question because matt brings his lips to mine, electric shocks rushing through my veins.

for a moment i close my eyes and let him kiss me, until the scary shock at what i'm doing and what he's doing hits me like a baseball bat and i shove him off of me. "what the fuck did you just do?" i stumble on my words, my breathing hitches and i feel as if my heart's going to explode in fear.

"devyn, i..." he doesn't get to finish his sentence because elijah ian spots me from across the street. why is everyone just up and at 'em this early in the morning? and why the fuck is elijah walking towards me?

"devyn, what's good." he smirks at me, then looks to matt who looks hurt and angry at the same time.

"so you chose him," matt shakes, "i should've known."

"what are you talking about big dog?" elijah raises his eyebrows. this seems to tick matt off even more because he spits out, "i'm not your dog, i would rather lick a public bathroom floor."

"the fuck did i do to you, man." elijah looks offended. matt rolls his eyes at him. "you know what you did."

"just go, matt." i snarl, looking at my shoes. i feel like the worst human being ever, i know i am. even though i wasn't looking, i could feel matt looking at me with betrayal in his eyes.

"if that's what you want," matt's voice is tense, "i'll leave." elijah doesn't say anything, but i can feel his eyes lingering on me for a while until i eventually snap my head in his direction and tell him to fuck off.

i'm standing by myself, wishing i could change my mind. i'm freaked out by the fact that matt kissed me, i'm even more freaked out by the fact that matt's loved me and i never could find it in my heart to love him like that.

if i could sink into the pavement beneath me, i would.

this chapter's short but i wanted the first part to be an introduction to why they haven't talked to each other in a while.

elijah isn't gonna be in the rest of the story because i don't like him.

anyways bye lovelies 💋

-molly