My Dear Diary

One Sided Love

Angelina's POV

Allen and I were always together.

We have been friends ever since childhood

Knowing him is one of the bestest things that has ever happened to me

And as we grew up I starting having a crush on him

At first it was just a simple crush which I tried to push away but was unable to

Soon this crush turned to love, I had this feeling that Allen was my soul mate it could have been just me overthinking all of this but at that very moment the love I had for him was beyond my control.

Many times I tried telling him how I feel however I was afraid of losing his friendship because mostly in these types of situations rejection occurs and the friendship fades away

I saw him fall in love with other girls, even though it pained me so much I was still happy for him at least a part of me was.

The days went by slowly. Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday

Allen and I barely talked in the past few weeks as he was mostly busy with his girlfriend "Melody."

She was indeed such a beautiful young woman. Almost half of the guys who lived in town fell in love with her beauty

I never felt jealous of her, no I didn't.

I never did and never will.

I was just mad at Allen for choosing Melody over me

I have been with Allen since childhood. How come he never saw me as a woman? How could he be so clueless?

I mean, what did she have that I didn't? I was beautiful just like she was and maybe even more but I guess beauty isn't everything, right?

While Allen was out there with Melody, I was mostly at home probably crying in my bedroom or complaining about how much i love and miss him.

This went on for a whole year

January,

Spent the day in bed

February,

Cried while reading his old messages

March,

Saw him with Melody at the cafe, he looked so happy

April,

Spent my birthday alone

May,

Took a walk and cried under the rain

June,

Watched a movie and ate 3 bowls of ice cream

July,

Called him but he didn't pick up

August,

Tried to paint but couldn't force because Allen was stuck in my mind

September,

Went to the mall with my friends but alas I saw him there holding hands with Melody

October,

Made a plan to make him fall in love with me, I think I'm going crazy

November,

Tried to move on

December,

His birthday

I wanted to surprise Allen, so I decided to go to his place to wish him a happy birthday and give him his gift. It was a wristwatch to remind him of all the beautiful times we had spent together.