I Belong To Him.

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AUTHOR being consistent? That's suspicious.... that's weird..... Anyways enjoy this chapter i know it's a bit short but you guys gonna have fun

LUCIFER'S POV:~

"Grace i am home." i said as i entered my luxurious mansion.

"Oh you are pretty early Lucifer. I thought you would not be here until evening. Now that you are here ear your lunch. You must be hungry." grace said.

"No i don't have appetite. Did sasha eat? Did she wake up? Was she being rude you?" I bombarded her with questions.

"No she has not eaten but i guess she is up from her sleep. I was about to go feed her. I made her favourite carbonara." She said.

"Oh okay i will bring her downstairs to eat no need to take her food upstairs. I will go and check if she is awake or not, then I will bring her down. Keep the carbonara served. I bet she's hungry." I said as i walked towards the stairs.

I was standing infront of my own bedroom debating on whether to know the door or just barge in. What if she's asleep and when i knock i wake her up? I slowly twisted the knob and went inside the bedroom.

She was not in bed. I looked at the bathroom door but it was wide open. Meaning she wasn't in the bathroom too. My eyes wandered all over the room once i caught her petite figure with almost lifeless body standing near a dresser. My eyes went to her hands and that's when i saw a pair of scissors pointing at her wrist pulse in such a way that if she moved her hand even a inch it would cut through her skin. I rushed towards her and snatched the pair of scissors from her hand. She looked at me and just stared at me as if she came back to her senses. I hugged her and she started crying. I felt a huge pang in my chest. I started caressing her hair telling her to calm down. She started crying even more holding me like she's gonna fall into a dark pitch and i was the only support she could hold onto. I felt worst. She was trying to take her life because of me. What if i did not came home early? Worst would have happened to her. Thoughts came rushing in my mind with guilt and regret. After some time her breathing became normal and when i saw her face she fell asleep while crying. Her face was pale and her eyes got puffy from all the crying. Her face went all red.

I hate myself so much. I should not have done that. I should have controlled myself. WHAT HAVE I DONE!!??

I am responsible for all of this. I did this to her. All her suffering is because of me. I should not have done that. The guilt engulfed me wholly. I placed he body on bed and tucked her in blankets. This feeling was foreign to me. I never felt a inch of guilt while slashing people's throat who did dirty to me. I enjoyed the pain, the suffering they went through. But today while seeing my sasha my princess in a condition like this, i felt like dying.I'm the thorn covering her rose. She thinks i will harm her but i am just here to protect her from people who will try to pluck her tenderness, her beauty. I am the dark she's the light. She is the light to my darkness and now i feel like i should not have brought her in my dark life, my ruthless behaviour. But I cannot really help it. I love her and that is how it is. I don't have a control over it. But now i am gonna improve for her. For us. For our future. I will make her fall in love with me. The way my mama loved my dad. Till her last breath, i will make her fall in love with me for that feeling. I knew she was mine the second i set my eyes on her and even if she didn't bumped into me that day i still would've found her. Because we are meant to be. This is all Destiny. Her name was written beside my name in heaven. It was written all along. She's a goddess and i want to worship her.

"Is she okay doctor?" I asked the female doctor who was checking Sasha's pulse.

"She is fine now. She just had a panic attack and by how the way you told me she was acting indicates it was her first panic attack. I have give her some medications to calm herself down. It's good that you were with her when this occured. Many people tend to go towards self harm in these cases. Please make sure to not let her take any stress. Panic attacks increase as the stress increases. Make sure she eats all her meals on time and takes medicines on time. I will come by a few days later to take a routine checkup on her. Till then take care of her." She said.

"Thankyou so much doctor. My house helper will guide you through the exit." I said as i called for grace who was waiting outside the bedroom.

Soon the doctor disappeared in the hallway with grace.

I looked at Sasha's pale looking face. She looked as if someone sucked out all her soul and charm from her. I started caressing her hair, pushing a strand of stray hair from her face.

"I'm so sorry baby. I know saying sorry wouldn't make things better but i assure you this shall not happen anytime soon. This behaviour of mine is non negotiable. I take care of it." I said while tiny drops of tears came rushing down my cheeks. I wiped them with the back of my palm and stood up.

I took one last glance at Sasha's laying figure and exited the room and walked towards grace.

"Grace, go into my bedroom and stay by Sasha's side. She needs someone who will understand her and i m sure she doesn't want to see my face anytime soon. Please make sure she eats something. Prepare her favourite food. Order whatever she wants to eat from anywhere. I believe in you grace. Take good care of her." I said. As i took big steps towards the main exit door. I needed to get these negative thoughts out of my head.

I sat in my car and the leathery smell filled my nose. My Rolls Royce roared as i turned her engine on. My ears got satisfied upon hearing it. I exited the main gate and headed straight to where my mom's was sleeping peacefully. Whenever i was in doubt, i always went to her. She was my everything. She made me feel at peace. I still feel her presence around me. As if it was yesterday when she shouted at me for keeping leftovers in my plate. I sometimes see her at the mansion. I used to see her a lot after she passed away. Maybe she wanted to stay or maybe it was all in my head. As time passed her sightings became less but her presence was still fresh and lively. When i told my brother about it he said i was crazy and that i should consult a psychiatrist. Maybe i should have listen to him but somewhere in my mind i didn't want her to die from there too. I didn't want her to vanish from my heart, my mind too. She was dead physically but emotionally she was and will always be there with me. I wanted to feel her touch again.

People may call me several names like ruthless devil, brutal king but deep down no one knew how lonely and depressed i was. I only craved one thing which was love. Maybe that's why i became so heartless. I always searched for love in different things like alcohol , drugs, killing. But everything felt made up. Nothing made me feel alive. Except sasha. i've found my love now. I have found a person who i will love endlessly but will she love me back as much as i do? will i get it in return? Maybe this thought made me go crazy and harsh on sasha. I should have given us some time.

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