Twisted WONDERLAND x Male Reader

Chapter 17: A process

He didn't pull away nor kiss back. He just stood there, face painted red. "I- i.." he stumbled on his words before I bowed deeply. "I'm sorry! Please forgive me! I don't know why I did that!"

He didn't even react, all he did was stand there wide eyed with a red face. "It- It's okay- d-dont worry about it.." he mumbled, covering his face with one of his hands. I gulped, and stood back up.

YOUR PERSPECTIVE

Omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg! He fucking stole my first kiss! I mean, I guess it's alright if he is hot- WAIT NOT THE POINT HERE! How did I let him do that?! I shouldn't have, I shouldn't have!

I quickly ran away, still flustered. I wasn't the type for romance, especially not now. But, i guess the real reason was the fact I didn't want to come to terms with how I really felt. I loved most of them a lot, others more. I just didn't quite have the heart to understand my feelings. Last I felt so emotional was with her.. and I don't want to think back in that.

I don't know why I ran away, what compelled me to do so, but I did. I think it hurt him, but I didn't know how to react. I couldn't return his feelings if I felt the same for like- 20 other people!

Then, it wouldn't be special. That was my thing about love, I couldn't handle it. At least, not romantically. It was my problem, my habit. I could understand friendly and family love, I was born into it (somewhat) but I never knew romantic love. I knew I loved him that way though, but for 20 other people?! I'm insane, I admit. I can't help who I love, who I hate. I really, really can't. It's hard to control that, I know. I just find it so complicated and complex I can't handle it. It makes me want to run away and hide in a corner. What do you know? I did just that!

I ran into, I don't really know what, but I place on school campus (ik not descriptive, but I don't know where I am) I huddled away into a little corner. Now that I could adjust to the lighting, it was the library, full of magnitizing and decorative books. I didn't know it, but I was indeed crying. A single tear rushed down my face, and then more came.

TO THE SEVEN DAMNIT WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO EMOTIONAL?! I screamed at myself internally. That just flooded the tears more. I sniffled and tried brushing them off with my palm, but that didn't work. I heard the door creak open slightly, making me jump at the sudden sound. I quickly showed the tears off my face, but you could clearly see I was crying. "Pup? What's wrong?"

Crewel was there, and he bent to my level. Grim was in his arms, so he placed him at my side before pulling me to him. He wrapped his jacket around me so that I was engulfed in it.

"Shh, baby, its okay. You can tell me anything." I knew he meant it as a father love, that's what he was to me. He was a dad, a loving and caring one who saw me as their own. He didn't see me as a machine, or a broken project they wouldn't put time to fix. "D-ad.." I croaked, upset and near a breakdown. I grilled the back of his shirt gently and moved my head to his shoulder. I cried and cried, letting anything out I could. "Y/n, it's okay. I'm here." He brushed my hair with his fingers and hummed gentle tunes. "Wanna talk about it?" He asked quietly. "Mhm.." I said.

"First, why did you run in here? I saw you sprinting and you bumped into the door." He chuckled, earning a pained laughed from me. "Someone.. kissed me.. today and I don't know how I feel. Dammit emotions are so annoying!" I yelled quickly covering my mouth after realizing my words. "Pup, it's alright." He reassured me, but he was pissed someone kissed his precious baby. "Who kissed you?" He was obviously planing to give them detention the rest of the year, 10x more homework, and harder and more dangerous potions.

"I won't say, but he kissed me out the blue. I ran away because I didn't know how to react. Am i.. weak.. for feeling this way? I shouldn't be so emotional, I'm too emotional for my own good." I states, letting my anger out, which stirred more tears. "Puppy, it's okay. You're allowed to feel emotional, your only human." I'd only you realized how wrong you were, Crewel. I'm not human, I don't deserve that title. I don't deserve anything. I should have died with her while i could. Why couldn't I just die?! "Sweatheart, let's go to my room and help me sort papers while we talk. I'll give you your favorite snack." I nodded and he picked me up with me in his jacket. To say we got stares was an understatement, but I didn't care as much. I nearly fell asleep on the way.

"Here Pup, sit down." He pulled out one of the comfortable chairs and I sat down. Immediately, Crowley slammed the door open. "MY BABY! MY MUFFIN! MY PEANUT!" He ran to my side. "How did you.." I stared at Crewel with furrowed brows, but I looked back at Crowley. "Dad.." he hugged me tight, and pulled a chair out beside me. I layed my head on his shoulder, and fluttered my eyes. I slowly drifted to sleep, comfortable with the atmosphere in the room.

Crowley gave me a smale kiss on the forehead before looking at Crewel. "What happened?"

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Sorry for making the reader so soft. Once someone cracks your shell, you usually burst into tears, right? Idk, happens to me sooo