Insufferable (Tom Kaulitz)

Crimson paint

I had my eyes squeezed shut as my finger loosened around the trigger, toms hand still holding mine firm. There was only silence.

"Look at her. Look at what you've done" he demanded

"No" I retorted

"This is all your fault. If you would've just listened" his tone of voice mocking me

"Fuck you" my eyes still closed

"LOOK AT HER" he shouted

My eyes opened to see the poor women laying there on the cold concrete, blood pooling by her head, her eyes remained open with the same scared expression.

The sight turned my stomach I went to move away from the scene but Tom kept his grip on my arm. I dropped the gun and hunched over, vomiting all over the ground, Tom never let me go. When I was finally done he jerked me up right and stared into my eyes.

"This is all your doing" he snapped before throwing my arm down and walking back to his car.

I looked back down at the lifeless officer Cham and began to sob "I'm so sorry" I whispered.

Death for me would've been a blessing. He had fully broken me.. this was worse then death. The permanent stain of taking a life on my conscious.

I walked slowly towards Tom, he leaned relaxed against his car watching my every move, he opened the passenger side and waited.

I stood infront of the door for a moment and just looked at him. I imagined myself punching him straight in the face, knocking him on his ass then shooting him repeatedly before pointing the gun to my own head and pulling the trigger. I'd be doing the world a favour.

I watched as he sucked his teeth and pushed me inside the vehicle. I sat there motionless. The whole ride back home I didn't say a word. Tom tried to say something intimidating every so often but I managed to tune him out.

When we arrived back at the house Tom got out of the car and opened my door, grabbing my arm roughly and ripping me out of the car.

We made our way inside the house, the other gang members and their pets all sitting in the living area. It angered me to see them sitting so casually beside a door to the prison cells.

Bill ran up to us "are you okay? Where did you go?" He asked cooley

"I just had to teach this one a lesson about discipline" Tom joked

Both twins laughed in unison as if this was some sick prank. I looked over to see the other girls frowns and beady eyes trailing up and down my body.

Toms hand still wrapped tightly around my wrist nudging me with every laugh he took. I looked down to see my blood trailing all across the floor but that didn't seem to be the thing all the girls were looking at.

"What" I shouted at them "what the fuck are you all looking at"

Tom and bills laughter ended and they were both glaring at me. The girls just closed their mouths and looked down.

"Cmon what the fuck is it? You losers sitting there staring at me in disapproval" my voice shook.

Gwen's bright blue eyes gazing up to me then down at the floor every so often, Melanie just sat there looking numb. I noticed the other girl I'd only seen once, she had short black hair and green tinted eyes, she just sat there grinning.

"Do you have something to say?" I retorted

"Who me" she chimed in

"Ya, you're the sick bitch who helped this psycho" i sneered