what has the world become

Life is like a movie

Hi I'm Chavelle, 

This is not a cry for help or anything. I just want to let out my feeling so I can feel better and smile throughout the day without feeling sad. I have friends that hang out with me and talk to me. i have parents that take care of me really well and buying things that I like just to make me smile. 

I do not like to tell people about my problem and how am i feeling. whenever I tell someone how I feel, the chavelle they know becomes different. to everyone, I do always smile and make people laugh and never seem to quiet down and when I'm sad, the sadness probably will be gone after a while. 

life is like a movie, one time it can feel like it is going to be a happy ending but turns out it is hard to get a happy ending. whatever you wish for never came true. no matter how much effort you put to prove yourself that you can do it but it just seems so difficult. 

Every day, I wake up and start a brand new day putting all those bad memories behind me and creating new ones. on 18th November 2002, around 1 pm, I came to earth. I know nothing about this world, obviously but oh well after a few months have passed I'm actually walking on grass and I do not remember which country I was in when I first start walking. 

Okay time to skip to the part where I have to go to school for the first time, it's called on the way to adult route. this is when everything or should I say when my life started. Guess what? i have been failing my exam interestingly the person who took the exam also said she don't know why she couldn't do it. that person is me. till one day, my teacher figured out I had ADHD because my attention span in class and in doing stuff is very much little.

my parents do not expect that I would have ADHD and they will think that I'm probably just stubborn and would cane me with a bamboo stick just for me to wake up my idea so I could study well and also squish some fish oil capsule into my mouth. don't worry my parents are not abusing me I just make it sound like it is. I just thought by eating fish oil would make me wise.

Apparently, I have to go for special classes in order to cure this. By this way, now 2023 I'm 90% normal I think I still have 10% of ADHD just much better than before. tactically, I'm actually thankful that I was able to see the world differently. do you know? i was dyslexic as well. where I read words backward, a normal human being would read ' How are you'. I read it as 'you are how'. how is it even possible? I guess ADHD and dyslexic people are really smart and unique because they see or do things that a normal person would think about it. 

Lee Kuan Yew, the prime minister of Singapore in 1965, was also dyslexic. when I knew Lee Kuan Yew had the same problem as me i did not feel left out. I kept pushing myself because I want to read things properly I want to be like other normal human beings and I did it. got a certificate for completing dyslexia classes and got clearance from the hospital that I do not need to go to my adhd check-up anymore. this feels better than university graduation I swear. 

overall, life is never perfect but whatever god has given me in life I cannot give back and I learned to appreciate my gift from heaven. everyone comes to earth for a reason, humans must live for a long time to know what is the reason for living on this earth, in this family that you are born in.