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Cuts and kisses (smut)

WARNINGS! ⚠️ hand job, anal sex, bullying, r slur used in derogatory way, self harm, suicide baiting, suicidal thoughts, making out. This is going to be some smut you guys starting off strong ig :) also they are in a regular high school no quirks

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The bell rang 5 minutes ago. I should have left the classroom but I am still here. Kacchan has his foot pressed to my chest, while Aoi takes my backpack from me.

"Hey! Stop it- UGH!" Kacchan presses is shoe deeper into my rib cage. Akari takes out my notebook. No, wait. Not that notebook!

"Bakugou! We found a nerd diary!" Akari waves my notebook in the air. Aoi clambers down from the chair he was sitting in, taking my notebook from Akari's hands.

"Oi," Kacchan barks. "What does it say?" He asks Aoi, a wry smile making its way across his lips.

"Let's see..." Aoi begins. He flips to somewhere around the 1/3 mark of the book. "My intrusive thoughts have been getting worse" Aoi reads aloud. I squirm, clawing at the leg pinning me to the ground.

"Aoi stop this is none of your business!" I beg. In response, he chuckles and hands the book over to Akari to read the next line for him. All the while Kacchan has been frozen, almost dissociated, as if there is a disconnect between his mind and his body. How I envy that. I am fully aware of what happens.

"I have been thinking about cutting closer to the wrists these days" Akari reads. He snorts, then looks to me, clearly judging me.

"PLEASE STOP AKARI PLEASE!" I pound my fists against Kacchan's calf, screaming. He runs his fingers through his hair, looking down at me. It is at this moment that I realize the man that I am in love with is hearing something that even my own mother doesn't know. My eyes sting, and I feel a lump forming in the back of my throat. "Please," I beg, sobbing. "Stop"

"What if I just went all the way, and killed myself?" Akari reads, reciting the words that I wrote for no one else to ever see, as if he was reciting the punchline of a joke. I throw my head back against the tile floor, making the room spin. I just want this to stop.

"I see, so the nerd is retarted." Aoi says, laughing. Akari puts out his hand, which is balled into a fist, and Aoi taps his fist against it.

"Shut up." Kacchan growls.

"I didn't say anything inaccurate" he spits. "Look at the bastard, he is having a fucking meltdown."

"Aoi!" Kacchan barks. "If you know what is good for you, then you know that you should shut the fuck up!" Aoi looks taken aback. I don't understand why he is so defensive, he is always mean to me, so are his friends. This isn't anything new.

"Hey deku," Akari starts. "Bakugou is right. It would be best for everyone if you wound up dead in the street." My eyes sting, and my lip quivers. I feel a weight lifted from my chest, and hear some sort of impact, and someone hitting the ground.

"I told you guys you should have shut up." Kacchan growls. I take the opportunity to get up out of the classroom and run home as quickly as I possibly can. I know my mom won't be home so maybe I could... but I shouldn't... but maybe they are right. It would be best for everyone if I disappear.

I run as fast as I can out of the school, not bothering to take my back pack, but making sure to take my notebook with me. I need to find a new hiding spot for my notebook, because I can't deal with this again. You wouldn't have to deal with this if you were gone. I can't think like that. That's dangerous. What is wrong with me? The question is what is right about you? No one wants you. No one needs you. Kacchan is right. Stop it! It's the truth.