My dearest love, thank you for letting me the person I would of been if everything would of been be ok
Touch still stings as you rub your fingertips across my collarbones.
In circles you go but what new.
It's better than being black and blue.
the fear of abandonment settles in as you caress my cheek and all of a sudden it feels like a slap.
Finally a sting.
I hate my own reflection so I mirror you.
What am I without you but an empty mirror with nothing reflect but myself
I hate myself.
It's a chess game, make your move and I'll follow you into a blunder.
You plunder my heart when you say "I love you"
Move me back to b3 before you free me.
Before the trauma came to bewilde me.
Tie me up, free me, come on me with me.
I'll love you forever, I'll love you the next time, I'll love you forever as long as your mine.
I set my soul upon your skin as we intertwine.
I'd Kiss your chapped lips with blood like wine.
If I could live inside your skin I would.
Do you think you'd love me if I could?
Do you love me? Or the person I could be if the trauma never happened?
I wish we never happened.
I wish I could kiss all your scars even the ones that faded away before me.
And kill all the girl's that were before me.
If you were my son I'd be proud of you.
I could never have enough of you.
"I'm never leaving" sounds like abandonment the moment it slips out your deceitful lips.
I don't trust you but I love you.
Tell me pretty things as your lips drip with honey and your eyes as dark as voids.
You look at me like a predator looks at its prey.
I turn to God hoping and praying.
Is it bad I want to climb into your mouth as you devour me?
Would you date a coward like me?
Love me, hurt me, kill me, just as long as it's me.
Everything that comes out your mouth is poetry even when you tell me how stupid I could be.
Did your daddy leave too?
I'll be your dolly
Did you play with dolls growing up?
Be my daddy.
I wish you knew how badly it hurts to love you.
This love is unbearable, I give too much to love you.
I hurt the ones I love and love the ones I hate.
Why do I ache?
Let's throw up cake.
Am I pretty enough
to be your wife?
I promise I won't pull out any more knifes.
Please just be in my life.
