I am Sorry, Heaven - A Short Story, Written by Pyre

I am Sorry, Heaven

     your eyes are so beautiful. they have seen so much love, and sadness. i wish that i could let them shine, instead of tears of woe. i want you to feel how it feels to be me.

     violet, my love. you have shown so much within the past 3 days. i have known you since 10th grade. yet, i never knew any of this about you.

     about your first love, your first kiss, how you almost got caught sneaking out. all i knew is that you were a girl. who i seemed to like.

"luna, what are you thinking?" violet asked.
"oh.. nothing," i smile softly.
"nuh uh, there's something going on in that small brain of yours. you're zoning out, staring at me again. whats up?"

     god i love it when you're so observant. you always knew what was going on. sometimes i think you can read minds, but i know that you don't. if you did, you would've known my pretty little secret.

"its just some thoughts, nothing really-"
"bull-fucking-shit. you have that look on you, love. tell me, whats wrong?"

     "love." oh my god. i think i want to scream. you always have a play on words and this one... oh just take my heart, please. my love for you is spilling out and i pray that youd notice.

"yknow how we've always been good friends? or i guess classmates? i never knew this side of you. how outgoing you were."
"well we were just friends of friends, but now i consider you more than that!"
"more how?"
"well.. i don't know... you just have this aroma around you. its a good aroma. every time im around you, i feel to need to hold you."

     "feel the need to hold you," if you don't just kiss me now- angels of heaven, please understand where i am coming from. the love of my life is in front of me, i do not care if it is wrong. i will break my wings myself to live eternal hell, as long as i have her with me.

"i need to tell you something, violet..." here i go
"sure, whats up?" i don't care if it hurts
"i've been meaning to tell you" my voice is shaking
"i love you." i said it..

     i said it. those three words. i finally said it. its been lingering in my mind since forever. my beloved violet, please. i have cut my wings for you. i will swallow my halo. i will let go of the angels to spend all my days with you in pits of fire.

      my love for you is unmatched. god will not be able to hold me, as his grip will losen. his hands would hurt trying to rescue me. i would rather kiss satan himself than lose the sight of you.

please stay with me violet.

"i love you too, luna..." why is there a pause
"but i don't know if im ready" i thought you were?
"i met this boy.." please. don't leave.
"we can still be friends!" those 5 words.
"we can still be friends!" it rings in my ears
"we can still be friends!" i think im going deaf

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     either way. i will wait on the crust of the earth, for your arrival. i do not regret cutting my wings, however i am badly bruised. dried blood is formed around, and i am weak.

     your powerful glances used to bring me energy. i looked forward to your smiles. yet, those eyes of yours. instead of giving me warmth, and comfort. all i feel is judgment.

     my halo has gone dark. it has crumbled. my eyes of pure joy, is now eyes of pure sadness. i, luna jade, has fallen down to the earths core. satan, would you take pity onto me? that my one love has lead me on?

     because i feel like, without even dying, i am at your entrance. please, satan, let me in. i do not care if i will get burned. i do not care i will scream. i need a place to stay, without feeling like the worlds biggest dumbass.

     i love her, and i will wait for her to knock on your door. i will wait and wait. until i am united with her again. until its only me and her.