the boy next-door

Elizabeth's pov

           The boy next door was my first love but he did don't know that I remember the first time I saw him he was in black short and a blue shirt. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I could never  forget that day, the first time that I have butterflies in my stomach. The first time I actually like somebody it was a weird feeling that first. As I got to know him he was this charming person and he had a bubbly personality and his smile light up a room his name is Nicholas but I call nick for short. When I was around nick, I feel safe it was me nick for a long time but a new girl came in towns her name is Rebecca she was so pretty with this beautiful red hair. And her perfect smile I was little bit jealous of her. I thought she was a mean stuck up person but once I got to know her, she was really sweet and kind person and that's the day we came best friends. She have a old brother named Steve he was a year older than all of us . He was tall he had drown hair and he  had beautiful hazel eyes he was really nice. he bonded with nick really good. One day when the boys were playing, I told Rebecca the I had a huge crush on. Nicolas since we war little kids she said that I should just tell him but I couldn't I didn't know if he would like me. I don't know if I was pretty to him. At the end of sophomore year, I went on vacation to my cousins house for half of the summer, and I finally focus on me I wouldn't worrying about Nicholas like me or think that I am pretty I didn't care if he didn't like me. I found me and I didn't need a boy's validation to make me feel beautiful. I had a big glow up during the summer before I went home. When I went back home, Nicolas and Rebecca threw me a welcome home party. I was really happy to see them. My best friend after the party was acting really weird towards Nicholas like they were not tell me something happen after I left for vacation? what could it be? What did they keep from me ? So I decided to do a little digging and I found  nothing . I thought I was overthinking. A week later we went to a party. It was really fun. We had a couple of drinks, Then I noticed Nicolas and Rebecca was gone so I went to go look for them. I search the whole downstairs I went up the stairs, in one of the room and that's when I found Nicolas and Rebecca sleeping  together I was so mad, I walked out the room and slammed the door. I went downstairs and I went out the front door. As I was walking home, I cried a lot. I couldn't believe them. My best friend knew that I liked Nicolas. I got to my house and looked myself in my room. And I just cry the whole time. I felt like an idiot I knew there was something going on with them. Why don't I just trust my instincts. I hate then both. Why could they do this them both. Why could they do this to me ? I couldn't believe it. I was just wasting my time, I decided not to talk to them for the rest of the summer. I don't even care about nothing no more. beginning of junior year started, I don't care and it showed because my grades were slipping didn't even care at all. I started to hang out wrong group of people and I met this fun boy we did excited things like racing I finally felt alive. Nicolas and Rebecca told me that  they didn't care. They hurt me so much. I hated them I started drinking really bad and they told my mom, she admitted me to psychiatric said I was a danger to myself. I  was in there for three weeks after that I had go to therapy and she banged up my trauma from my childhood the reason why we moved to this town. She said she seen my medical files and then I'm lucky to be alive if my dad would've went  deeper into my organs I would've been dead, my therapist said, why do I take my life for granted it was because at this point, I don't care about. My childhood crush is dating my best friend. My best friend lied to me I have  going for me. I decided I needed to changed. I knew that if I didn't change  I would be just letting my old best friend and Nickolas win. I wasn't go let that happened. After that, my grades started to go up and my therapist recommended me to write a little poem to get my feelings out the way so here goes. Who's keeps on hurt you but your heart keeps on beating for them and you keep on for giving them the pain is the one of the dangerous pain of love they make promises that the can't keep make promises that the can't keep the pain go away when you when you look at them I thought the love was like Bonnie and Clyde but again you prove me wrong this love story was supposed be a fairytale story buy at least it didn't succeed.