My thoughts unfiltered

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I don't know why i just can't stop this feeling.
I say that I'm done.
I say that I'm healing.
So why do I wake up in the middle of the night panting for breath, dripping in sweat.
And why do feel my blood turn to tears when my mind over comes with all these fears.
I say that I'm done and it's over then why do I want to do it all over again.