Theory of Two.

The present is commonly one of the moments that we simply let go, ignoring that what we call life is really the present, an unrepeatable moment and yet even different from the past, and different even from the future.

It is also; apart from ignored, restructured to later be seen as past, adding the good, or the bad, to be remembered, but it is no longer present.

I understand that sometimes life tends to be complex, a lot of it scares, how love can scare, how fear can scare, but difficult to understand and difficult to analyze, much more so when we don't pay attention and it happens right before our eyes, because many times we are distracted, thinking about the future, thinking about what has already happened, but very rarely, thinking about what is happening in front of you, in the here, and in the now. I infinitely believe in the eternity of moments, even if for moments they are also ignored.

I also believe in love, and in what it is capable of becoming, in what you are capable of achieving once you want to achieve it. I also believe in how simple happiness can be, and how truly unrepeatable moments are. Have you ever thought? We are so tiny, even in time, so insignificant, even in what we feel, and even so, it has been hard for us to be happy.

Thousands and millions of years to get to where we are, as a race, as a species, but only a few moments, to be.

It's hard to be, it's also hard to stop being, and leave.

I was in love once, and I understood, that love is another way to distract ourselves, another way to be happy, and another of those many moments in life. It is part of the present, it is part of the future, and we do not want it to be the past. You can love and be loved, or you can love, and then we understood that love is not really everything, it is one more portion. There are also fears, many times I was afraid, I was afraid when I woke up, and before going to sleep, I was afraid of not being happy, I was afraid of life, but I was born, and I was afraid of death...

Between so many fears and loves, so many different presents full of illusions and fears, between so many times that I could be happy, I still have not understood anything, it has been difficult for me to understand myself, and to know who I want to be, it has been difficult for me to be, and also to be able to go.

Many times I looked at the sky, looking for some sign among so many stars, looking for some hidden message that I hadn't realized, I wanted to believe that there were voices in my head trying to tell me something, to be able to understand what I still haven't understood, to maybe understand life and its mysteries.

I have been good at analyzing, realizing what is happening, paying little attention, and deducing. I've had a great ability to see a little further, it's incredible that I'm so bad at chess, but I guess I'm not good at board games, or perhaps I don't really pay attention to them and I contradict myself.

With this ability that I have had to see what others have not been able to see, I reached different conclusions, trying to convince myself that there is something beyond, even after life, or perhaps it is life, which was more there. It's that we get distracted, particularly me, I get distracted, I get distracted with love, with fears, and trying to be happy without living, faithfully believing that life ends.

I thought I saw beyond, and I became friends with the present, I understood that it existed, that it exists, and it's the only thing that really is with you at night when you're alone, during the day when you're sad, when you write, when you read, when you play and you have fun, when you pretend you're happy, when you say you love and see the sun shine, there's you, and the present, and nothing else, perhaps several million atoms, matter, energies, some other humans, but it's really you and the present, and speaking of the present, let me lie to you by telling you that I think it is hiding something.