Clueless

Typical Day

My family and friends are blind. They don't take the time to see what's underneath. All they see is the smile on my face and hear the joy in my laughter. I go to school as usual. Pretending everything is okay, but then I remember the scars on my hips and flip my smile around. People just don't seem to notice that I'm dying inside. I walk through the halls cluelessly. Just passing the time. The dismissal bell rings. I hear myself whisper "Oh no, time to go home".

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I open the door and hear the same old noise "why are you late?" I can smell the foulness in his breath and I shakily answer "At school, there was there was a meeting"

"You sure you aren't out doing drugs? Or having fun with boys?" He says nuzzling my neck.

"Please....not tonight" I begged, but he already started taking my shirt off.

We blindly make our way to the bedroom and the same old routine unfolded; come home, get laid, clean-up and pretend like nothing happened.

I hear the door open and hurriedly rush to my room.

"Charlotte, I'm home!" I hear my mother call.

"Down there in a minute" I say fighting back the tears. I race to the stairs, but Lorenzo makes it down before I do. As usual I watch him caress my mother with love.

My mother is blind. I awkwardly watch them kiss for a brief moment until I break the silence with the usual question.

"How was work?"

We lose ourselves at dinner occasionally laughing about senseless things.

Moments later I felt my stress fade as I made my way to my room.