as i sit here alone and in pain i think why , why me why do i do this to myself, who do people hurt me everytime. Everyone thinks im happy but deep down im not deep down im hurting so much, i cut because i jsut cant take it anymore i cry every night wishing somebody would help me somebody would help me get through this. I feel alone even when im surrounded by so many people , i have trust issues because whenever i trust someone with something important they break it, people always ask if im okay i always say im fine bu i want someone to tell me that they know im not , i want them to force it out of me then ill at least know somebody does care that i am loved. I cut deep it hurts alot, i cut becase i just cant take it.
i get bullied people call me ugly, fat, slut , i get textes by randoms saying im fuked that i should go die because novody would care, my real parents didnt want me because they knew i was fucked, do i know that?? NO but i hope that wasnt the reason, i hate being adopted because i dont know who my real parents are i dont know who they are or what they look like, would i be a dissapointment to them would they like the way i am or not?? it hurts not knowing
atm life sucks and i hate it :(
