BL ONESHOTS

¹⁵⁰Akk x Ayan⁰⁵¹

Ayan' POV

"I Like You."
"Ugh, okay.?"

I told him so confidently that I like him, but all he said was, 'okay'.

And then I was gone. And never returned, I never told anyone I was leaving. Or if I was ever coming back.

4 years later.

Akk' POV

I don't know what to do with how I feel.
I don't know what to do with anything I do.

It's been too long now, and im 22. I have seen you since we were 18, and I wish I just said the words that I knew were true.

I miss you but I can't say it.
I love you, but those words were hard to say.
I need you, but I never said the words, and now you're gone and have been for 4 years.

I've kept my mouth shut about everything that's pulling me down, and I know that the only thing that will help me is if I find you and tell you just how I feel.

I know I like you, no, I mean I know I love you, and I should've told you 4 years ago when you said the three words that would've kept us together.

You just got up and left without a word without a message or a call. You were gone, and I didn't get to tell you how I felt. I knew my answer when you told me you like me, but I was too shy about saying the three words I should've said that day.

I miss you and I need you because for the past 4 years now. I've been in and out of the hospital because of suicide fails. Because I tried taking my own life in a secure location where no one saw me, but I was always found. I was always safe, even when I thought that it was my last day.

Author.

Ayan was nowhere to be found, and Akk was going insane.

Akk was suicidal since the day Ayan left without a word. But that was part of his fault because he should have said those three words. Ayan had no idea what was going on with Akk until he was messaged by Thua telling him that Akk was going to the hospital because they found him in his apartment surrounded by his own blood that had been flowing from his arm.

Thua had been the only person who knew where Ayan had gone, but Ayan did not leave because Akk never gave an answer, Ayan left because his father wasn't doing so good. And that's why Ayan had been gone for 4 years. The 4th year was when Ayan' dad passed.

Ayan found out about Akk being in hospital because of his suicide attempt a couple weeks after Ayan' dad had passed, and so Ayan went back to Thailand to make sure the one person liked would not die. Because all he got from Thua before cutting it off to drive back was "Akk is in hospital, he tried killing himself. I think you should come back."

Ayan made the drive back to Thailand hospital and met Thua and Kan at the front entrance. They told him what floor and what room number Akk was in, and Ayan went up himself. He was nervous, not knowing if Akk was okay or not. He stood outside Akk room door and just stood their. Then, a minute later, he opened the door and walked in with his eyes glued to the floor, not knowing or wanting to see the scene in front of him. He was scared. Because he had no idea how bad Akk was.

Ayan walked with his eyes still glued to the floor, and then he closed the door behind him. Then he knew it was true that Akk was here because the first thing he smelt was the colone Akk wore, then he finally made it to the bed. Ayan finally looks up, and their on the bed, laid Akk, with both is wrist bandaged yet again, but this time Ayan was here.

Ayan had tears in his eyes, and then he saw Akk open his eyes. No one said a word.

Akk and Ayan were alone.

Ayan' POV

Why would you do this? I'm never leaving again. I'm staying right here with you, and I'm not leaving you ever again. I'm here now.

"I...I... ugh.. I don't know what to say. W....what am I meant to say. Why did you do this.? Akk I....I don't know what to do."
I didn't know what to do or say to him. He looked at me like I wasn't even their but realized I was when I spoke to him. I cried more, seeing him lying in that bed with bandaged up wrist, I was helpless.

Akk' POV

I knew someone walked into this room, but I didn't know who it was, and it sure wasn't a nurse or doctor because they walked in here loud to let me know they were here. But it was quite, no noise, no speaking, just slow quite foot steps from the door to the side of my bed.

"A......Aye... is it really you. Are you really here."
He then looked up at me and cried more, nodding his head and letting me know he was actually here. He was standing in front of me. I sat up looking at him and motioned him towards me. I needed a hug, and it looked like he needed one, too.

Author.

Ayan and Akk finally hugged, and this was their first hug in 4 years. Akk was complete but not fully complete. Akk parted away from the hug and looked Ayan in the eyes and said the final words to never separate them again.

"I love you, Aye. And I'm sorry I didn't tell you 4 years ago. But I can say it now. Because after 4 years, my feelings towards you have not changed. Please don't leave me again. I can't be here in this hospital again. I can't do this life thing without you here by my side and with me till the very end. Please, Aye, don't leave me again."

Ayan was crying like it was his last time doing so. The tears from him kept coming, and it was a never-ending saga of tears.

Instead of answering Akk back after he had confessed, finally Ayan kissed Akk instead. It was an awaited kiss that needed to be done. A kiss that made Akk melt even more than he already was.

After a couple of hours the both of them spoke together about everything. From why Ayan left in the first place to why Akk had been attempting suicide. They made up and still held strong feelings towards each other after 4 years.

And yes, they became a couple. After catching up, Ayan ended up on the bed with Akk, and Akk moved over a bit so the both of them could fit. Both sides of the bed were up to keep them on the bed. It was an uncomfortable feeling, but it was comfy because they had each other. Akk laid his head on Ayan chest with one of his arms wrapped around Ayan, and Ayan held Akk so close that there was no space between them. They ended up falling asleep together in each other's arms with faint lines of tears on their faces, letting whoever saw them know that they had cried before falling asleep the way they had.

Thua and Kan wanted to make sure both of them were okay but walked in on the two sleeping beauties cuddle into one another with visible tears stains on both their faces. They walked out letting the two rest.

They were finally together again, and they started their happy ending by never being apart ever again. They loved each other and protected each other, and comforted one another when needed. They were officially inseparable.

Akk no longer tried taking his life, but he knew even if Ayan was their it was bound to happen. But he knew he was going to be okay now. And Ayan knew that even losing his dad, he still had someone their for him to love him and protect him nonetheless.

Akk was never alone again, and Ayan finally had the love of his life to himself. They were happy finally.

[I had no idea where this was going. I had a bad week. But I'm hoping this is okay for you. Do vote if you like. Comment if you want to leave me feedback or insult... honestly, I don't mind. Honesty is better than hatred right!?. Anyway thank you for being ready. It might be a little longer until the next story, but I will keep these stories going.]